Month: July 2005

Update:

SO ive been managing my time nicely. I have been allll around this summer- and i still set time aside for myself. yesterday i went to the kava bar- saw so many fine lookin ladies that i havent seen in forever. I havent been to the beach in a few days, and i find that very perturbing. i need to do that asap. hm… started workin- its been aight. Bar backing at Spotos Oakwood Grill on PGA- so save up and come visit. I had two friends from NJ come down. It was pretty sweet- even tho we did absolutely nothing. They were happy to be here so it didnt matter. So goshhhhhhhhhh what else…. um.. man. Guitar.  playing alot alot. and ive been reading. i like it. The shins are so damn good. LISTEN TO THE SHINS- ALL OF YOU. ha 😉

sometimes you need to run away. or be rescued. im looking to be rescued. help.

I see our stars tonight
Do you recall that light
Or do you ever think of me
And in your world somewhere
Do memories rip and tear
The ones that always keep you hanging on
To all that might have been

 

 

Last night was pretty much amazing. Went to la fonda and Salsa danced into the night for sebastians b-day. Pregame was at sebs poolhouse where salsa lessons were given and massive amounts of alcohol was consumed in a very short period of time. we piled into a big’ol van and partied till we got there. i had so much fun. there was minor drama that occurred which sucks but its all good.  Everyone was REALLY drunk. I was laughing the whole night. i woke up in the middle of the floor in some random house with no furniture. I realized that i was laying next to about 6 other people who were unconscious and scattered about the room, all chillin with no blankets. Just the lovely feel of carpet. that made me laugh. I remember eating weird food at the this latino club and drinking weird beverages. it was cooooool—

THEN- made my way to sebs house, passed out till 130- woke and went to sebs poolhouse for a huge barbacue with like 40 people. volleyball, drunkpeople, swimming, MLS on TV goin on, dancing, fun fun funnnnnn. now im tired and im gonna take a shower, clean up and pass out.

everyone over reacts. no one sees the big picture.

I propose that everyone lets go of mindless thoughts that hold you back from living life to its fullest. Seeing people recognize that everyone is not perfect, and that everyone is just as capable as the person next to them- capable of good and bad.

i find people funny. i will tell you this. i find it funny that people complain about people complaining. it makes me laugh. what are you saying? that your complaints are more valid than thiers.  really its funny. i find it humorous that people take the time to complain about those people. about the people they dont like. I just recently noticed a trend beginnning. its: Complain and complain some more about the people you dont like and who comaplain, and put it in your profile. i get a laugh. people are funny.

so i get a job. woot. its actually a real job. no honky dorey stuff. a desk job… for whom? why none other than Maverick skate shop. so i sit at a desk all day and order clothes and pick out clothes and talk to vendors and reps and all that jazz. its pretty cool feeling professional. its even cooler when i sit at a desk. whoa.

money = REALLY GOOOD

i love partying. esp sober.and i love girls 😉

 

 

the beach is my home- go there or be a hermit-pah

i want everyone to know— that i love everyone. im sober now and i am having the happiest days of my life. going to parties sober is a whole different experience. i dont need to drink or pop pills or smoke or do all that other trash in order to forget my insecurities in order to have a good time. never thought id ever ever say that. and i dont think anyone would ever ever imagine me saying that. no longer am i a slave to myself. everyday is good. and when it gets bad, i still have the option to make the best of it. no longer is fun a partying experience- everyminute of my life is fun. i love my friends and the people that support me. i always have good times partying with my bottled water. ha. im even more thankful for those who never gave up on me through my trials. i am so gratetful.

singing in the car- to anything. wrestling in beds. yelling and jumping. meeting random people in random places and having fun all the while. soaking up the sun- basking in sweat- swimming to the sand bars-going surfing even if its just wind chop to paddle around- shell fights. ha. getting buried in the sand. rekindling old friendships.silly. kisses and hugs. movies. late night anything. staying in shape. woooot. the list goes on. and i remember every minute of it.  

Im bored… and its raining.

soo…ill fill you in on what my summer routines been lookin like. wake up round  8. run around jupiter till i cant breath or feel my legs. lift. eat breakfast. shower. read for an hour. hop online. check the weather. check the surf report. make phone calls. get out of the house by 12. go out all day. eat in between. run again.  go out all night. stay sober. go to bed by an early hour. structure is hot.