Month: May 2005

My Monday Night

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

My Monday Night

500pm Monday after noon. gettin high at the figure 8. with jesse and jarod. Dino calls me. hes with Devin and Eric. We meet up. Jarod and jesse go home. i go with Dino. We chill. Took some shots of GM and wiskey. went to the beach. skim boarded. came home. decided that we should get drunk. no beer.

Dino has a stroke of genius. He dresses up in hobo clothes, a big jean jacket, a winter hat a 2 foot scraggly beard and aviator glasses. he incorporates a haggard drunk strung out voice to accomadate the attire. We go to sunoco, he goes in and comes back out. With 2 12 packs of BL!. wooooot.

we go back to dinos, pound 6 beers each. listen to dino jam on the guitar. we rate the songs that are goin on his new CD. awesome shit. smoke cigarettes. I officially got branded last night. the infamous heart on the right hand. it means= I am committed to going to colorado with dino the crew as soon as possible. (when i get out of the marines.) we decide to go on a drunken adventure. we walk to the BEACH. we’re singing loudly, dancing in the road, hootin and hollaring. laughing. get to the beach. watch the lightning storm thats far out at sea. sit on the beach and chill. We notice a LARGE mass moving on the shore. we’re like is that a turtle. we run up. ITS A 300lb SEA TURTLE. WE SHIT. so crazy. we’re all touchin it and tryin to pick it up. unfortunately it overpowered up and pulled us into the ocean before we let go.so we walk , totally stoked that we just saw a friggen SEA TURTLE. we’re hungry. THIRSTY TURTLE WINGS. its like 1130. they’re kitchen is closed. they tell us to go to Kirbys. we venture to kirbys. JUST IN TIME to witness ladies getting naked for money. ofcourse us young bucks get excited and started throwin money around. A 30 year old GUIDANCE counselor from Ohio is on the bar stool givin us a peep show for our dollar bills. WHAT THE F. how crazy is that. we’re all drunk and order wings while all this mayhem at the bar is goin on. naked women crazy stuff. eat our wings. arm wrestling goin on. some 35 yearold dude is arm wrestling my friends while we sit outside and shoot the shit. hes like arm wrestle me. im like ok. i beat this guy. i dont think ive seen a guy so humiliated. an 18 year old drunk kid beat this 35 year old. i found it funny. 6 tries later i still beat him. funniest shit ever. ppl are drunk and rowdy. guys are doin back flips and walkin around on thier hands. wow. drunk ladies (with their husbands) are tellin us about the amazing head they give. my friends are all about this. haha. hittin on these older women like theyre gonna get some. it was funny. we go back to dinos, drink some more. smoke a bowl. chill out. listen to music. and…. pass out. wake up. its morning. have a grit and coffee. its pouring out. Lets go to the beach. we get up, put on some dirty shorts and go to the beach. skim board and shit. its all shitty out and we look like lunatics runnin around the streets half naked. go back to his house shower off and go home. what a night.

That was my monday night.

7:34 PM

My friday night.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

My friday night.

i worked till 1130. dropped some E (yay). went to a beach party. fighting everywhere. people everywhere. dont know whats goin on. no more alcohol. kegs dry. whatev.ppl r everywhere. po po roll up. outta nowhere. i realize the situation at hand. i shit and run my ass off to the car. i dive head first in some bushes so that i might be able to elude the blue monsters. run on the beach for a good, eh, fuckin mile.. (felt like it) find the car. get in. go to taco bell to chill out and figure out what the fuck happened. watch police and abulences spontaneously spawn from every corner of jupiter. heard that someone died. (seriously tho) im freakin out. but dont care cause im rollin. i call bunches of ppl up. leave a few dozen messages. pick up a 12 pack. go back to my house where i was gonna have ppl over. go to my neighbors house. party. brooke calls me back. told her i wanted to see her. she said stop by in this newhaven party. go there. rollin balls. drank 10 beers. really drunk. dont remember fine details. i liked everyone at the house i was at. i go home round 3. chill at my neighbors. talk to gay guys about life. very enlightening. im rollin till about 6 this morning. i see the sun peak its rays over the horizon. i realize i should probably go to bed. i had work at 10 this morning.

that was my friday night.

9:17 PM

Saturday, May 28, 2005

My friday night.
i worked till 1130. dropped some E (yay). went to a beach party. fighting everywhere. people everywhere. dont know whats goin on. no more alcohol. kegs dry. whatev.ppl r everywhere. po po roll up. outta nowhere. i realize the situation at hand. i shit and run my ass off to the car. i dive head first in some bushes so that i might be able to elude the blue monsters. run on the beach for a good, eh, fuckin mile.. (felt like it) find the car. get in. go to taco bell to chill out and figure out what the fuck happened. watch police and abulences spontaneously spawn from every corner of jupiter. heard that someone died. (seriously tho) im freakin out. but dont care cause im rollin. i call bunches of ppl up. leave a few dozen messages. pick up a 12 pack. go back to my house where i was gonna have ppl over. go to my neighbors house. party. brooke calls me back. told her i wanted to see her. she said stop by in this newhaven party. go there. rollin balls. drank 10 beers. really drunk. dont remember fine details. i liked everyone at the house i was at. i go home round 3. chill at my neighbors. talk to gay guys about life. very enlightening. im rollin till about 6 this morning. i see the sun peak its rays over the horizon. i realize i should probably go to bed. i had work at 10 this morning.
that was my friday night.

9:17 PM

Compilation of posts: May 11-May 25th

Tuesday, May 24, 2005 

before the end of this summer i plan on hitchhiking to california. hitchhiking,busses, taxis, river. whatever. i plan on going out there for about a month. Staying at some friends houses and what not. This is totally random. and im so fucking serious about it. im 18 and i have no serious commitments so i wont be fucking myself over. i plan on getting up and disappearing on an adventure for a good while. i suppose ill save up a bit. then bam im gone LA.. im there.

10:43 PM 
 
Sunday, May 22, 2005 

When we met light was shed Thoughts free flow you said you’ve got something Deep inside of you A wind chime voice sound, sway of your hips round rings true It goes deep inside of you These secret garden beams, changed my life so it seems Fall breeze blows outside, I don’t break stride My thoughts are warm And they go deep inside of you And I never felt alone, ’till I met you Friends say I’ve changed, I don’t listen ’cause I live to be Deep inside of you Slide of her dress, shouts in darkness, I’m so alive I’m deep inside of you You said boy make girl feel good But still, deep inside, still I’ve never felt alone ‘Till I met you I’m all right on my own And then I met you And I’d know what to do if I just knew what’s coming I would change myself if I could I’d walk with my people if I could find them And I’d say that I’m sorry to you I’m sorry to you And I don’t want to call you But then I want to call you ’cause I don’t want to crush you But I feel like crushing you And it’s true I took for granted you were with me I breathe by your looks and you look right through me And we were broke and didn’t know And we were broke and didn’t know And we were broke and didn’t know Something’s gone, you withdraw and I’m not strong like before I was Deep inside of you I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost Deep inside of you And some great need in me starts to bleed I’ve lost myself there’s nothing left, it’s all gone Deep inside of you Deep inside of you Deep inside of you song lyrics are amazing! even without the music to accompany the carefully orchestrated arrangment of words. but you all knew that.

5:01 PM 
 
Saturday, May 21, 2005 

god my heart has never hurt so bad in all of my life. its the worst pain ever.

1:41 PM 
 
Friday, May 20, 2005 

"Save yourself. Because the only thing that matters is that you get away from the pain and the thought of losing your mind. Don’t blame yourself. It was everyone around you who made you act this way. There’s the stage and your chance to watch it go down. Don’t fake yourself into ever, ever thinking about yesterday. That was then, this is now. Don’t call it undone. Don’t take what you’ve been dealt. You can exit out the back and make your getaway before anyone can see the damage you have done. This time is the last time so be here now. This time is the last time. Somehow make it through. State your case. You’ve got everyone’s attention. What can you say? Thanks or forget what you’ve been given. Take your place. Do you think that you deserve the best of everything? We don’t get why you’re here. Can you figure it out? This time is the last time so be here, here now. You’ve got to get away. Oh, I get lost in the thought of losing you. You’ve got to get away. I know it’s a dream but it must be true. Wave now goodbye. It’s the lesson that you’ve been given. You can always move on to better things. "

1:05 AM 
 
Thursday, May 19, 2005 

my whole family went vegetarian. my sisters went vegan. ok. now… i dont mind the fact that they dont eat animals or whatever. not a problem with me. but the current situation in my refrigerator disturbs me. NOT ONE MEAT PRODUCT. yea. we got the organic cow milk. thats the only animals product in the midst of soymilk, tofu, and an array of hardcore vegetable, bean, and rice combinations. so its discomforting when my manly instincts kick in, and i get a hunger for some hardcore beef or maybe just a suculent chicken breast to munch on, and THERE ISNT A PIECE OF MEAT IN THE WHOLE house. yea. thought id share that with you. i also wanna share that i currently found out that fast food restaurants serve grade E meat. ALPO and other dog food manufacturers use grade D meat to make thier reknown dog food. choice eh. never eat fast fooooood.

8:58 AM 
 
Monday, May 16, 2005 

"thinking listening searching i am aware of the time as it escapes into oblivion. no cute fits of laughter will save us now. we’re looking into the long haul and we’ve got scars as reminders. shes looking out her window, over the roofs and into my room. if only i felt safe enough to escape with you than we’d take to the places we’ve dreampt of together. over the seas and onto the fields where we would be wild together forever. dawns never to late to come home. ive got tea for two and arms for you. and just because i forgot your name doesnt mean i forgot your face. ill be waiting for you as long as these memories remain my sunshine." *smile*

5:25 PM 
 
Saturday, May 14, 2005 

my life is crazy. im not confused. i know what i want. i know what i like. i know who i like. i dont have problems with people. i dont want problems with people. i do what i want when i feel its necessary. i cant please every one in the world. im in total control of my life because i know i have no control of my life. i am no better than anyone. and no one is better than me. im tired of confusion and hurt. i dont appreciate mean people. people that go out of their way to make someone feel bad. thats a mean person. i dont care if people hurt me, people can do thier worst. ill still be here. no matter waht the circumstances. i dont like when other people hurt. i dont like hurting people. i want the best for people. im not out to get anyone. i dont want drama. i want people in my life who know what the hell they want and are certain of it. learn to appreciate that life is what you make it and how you see it. the circumstances dont make you content. being content with what you have for however long you have it is what makes life grand. i dont ever wanna be not content again. i want carefree. i want simple.

im fuckin 18 years old. i have a summer ahead of me then the marines. i am going to take full advantage of my youth and the adventure this summer has to offer. and nothing will stop me.

Currently listening:
Funeral
By The Arcade Fire
Release date: 14 September, 2004
9:54 AM 
 
Thursday, May 12, 2005 

i dont know what happened yesterday. airport. beach. ppl. roads. skateboards. so confusing.

9:17 AM 
 
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 

um. beach. skateboarding(in the rain). smoking. roadtrips. smoking. parties. new people. new places. new food. money. alot of fun. fancy that. all at once. i love it.

9:23 AM

Compilation of posts: April 24- May 8

Sunday, May 08, 2005 

The hand of my clock strikes two In times when I got the best of you We made promises we couldn’t keep And every night we couldn’t sleep. I didn’t know why, but didn’t ask questions because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life Where I, did something right. I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time You pick me apart While I search for witty things to say (In my defense) "You’ll never amount to anything anyway" (Don’t press your luck, don’t press your luck) And think that I’m impressed with your one night stands and your contagious kiss I’m trying to get this right Yeah, cause I’m ridiculous like that I’ll keep this as A constant reminder Of the nights I spent holding onto her And rest assured I’m moving on I miss you less, with each day your gone (your gone)

1:22 PM 
 
Saturday, May 07, 2005 

Untie me, I’ve said no vows The train is getting way too loud I gotta leave here my girl Get on with my lonely life Just leave the ring on the rail For the wheels to nullify Until this turn in my head I let you stay and you paid no rent I spent twelve long months on the lam That’s enough sitting on the fence For the fear of breaking dams I find a fatal flaw In the logic of love And go out of my head You love a sinking stone That’ll never elope So get used to the lonesome Girl, you must atone some Don’t leave me no phone number there It took me all of a year To put the poison pill to your ear But now I stand on honest ground, on honest ground You want to fight for this love But honey you cannot wrestle a dove So baby it’s clear You want to jump and dance But you sat on your hands And lost your only chance Go back to your hometown Get your feet on the ground And stop floating around I find a fatal flaw In the logic of love And go out of my head You love a sinking stone That’ll never elope So get used to used to the lonesome Girl, you must atone some Don’t leave me no phone number there to a special someone.

2:26 PM 
 
Wednesday, May 04, 2005 

If I had a dime for every time you walked away, I could afford to not give a shit and buy a drink and drown the day But your pockets, they are empty, yeh, and mine are times two So why not make an about-face, and accept the love I send to you? You’re never gonna be content if you font try, try to see outside your line. There you go, you did it again! You act as if there’s binder on your eyes. Should I apologize if what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?! Oh, did I crack your shell? When it falls away, you’ll see we exist as well! Like a bottle with the cork stuck, your true ingredients trapped inside. Through the cloudy glass we catch a glimpse of you, I guess the hard shell represents your pride. Oh, if only it could be different we could uncover the you, you deny. Between two, a small discrepancy, one complicates and one simplifies. TAKE THOSE FUCKING BLINDERS OFF YOUR EYES!! So if I had a dime for every time you walked away, you could bet your bottom dollar that I’d be filthy rich by noon today

9:25 PM 
 
 
Wednesday, May 04, 2005 

im young. ive got years ahead of me. i can smoke drink and do whatever else i wanna do. im free. no major bills. no major responsiblity. i am capable of doing whatever i want. im growing up and i gotta take every scabbed knee like its my last. i gotta be as rowdy as possible. take advantage of youth. Could I make it all up to you by serving coffee for two in bed, would you then give me the time of day.I need a map of your head, translated into english so I can learn to not make you frown. Feel better if you vent, put your frustrations into four letter words and let them out on mine, The most weathered ears in town! Say what u will, Say what u mean, No, you could never offend. Your dirty words come out clean

6:46 PM 
 
Tuesday, May 03, 2005 

Im going to renegades tonight… never been. suppose to be a bachelors paradise… but i dunno… country line dancing… not my style. we’ll see tho……. schools a bitch…annddd…. summers almost here. andddd i like this song. I don’t mind you comin’ here and wastin’ all my time ’cause when you’re standin’ oh so near I kinda lose my mind it’s not the perfume that you wear it’s not the ribbons in your hair I don’t mind you comin’ here and wastin’ all my time I don’t mind you hangin’ out and talkin’ in your sleep it doesn’t matter where you’ve been as long as it was deep, yeah you always knew to wear it well and you look so fancy I can tell I don’t mind you hangin’ out and talkin’ in your sleep I guess you’re just what I needed

9:24 AM
 
Sunday, May 01, 2005 

so i decided im gonna be famous. how? well… im gonna live the craziest life a man can possibly live… get into as much shit as humanly possible… experience more things than anyone person should experience… and write a book about it. fuck yea. im already half way there and everyday continually brings more and more shit to tell about. im tired of the traditional lifestyles everyones living… im really tired of watching it on TV and reading about it in the newspapers… im gonna make sure i fuckin get off my ass… and get involved with a massive "Things to do" list… and start doing them.

10:39 AM 
 
Friday, April 29, 2005 

i got like 3 rolls of film… for laziness sake im putting up a whopping 5 pics.enjoy. Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com Image hosted by Photobucket.com

1:33 PM 
 
Thursday, April 28, 2005 

Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers and laid entwined together on a bed of clover and left there to sleep, left there to dream of their happiness.

7:50 PM 
 
Monday, April 25, 2005 

ok… ive decided that blondes are better. no offense to all you that lack the blonde quality. i did the black/brown hair thing… not cuttin it. im glad im a blonde once again. yea…i missed it.

12:54 PM 
 
Sunday, April 24, 2005 

It’s over You don’t need to tell me I hope you’re with someone who makes you feel safe in your sleeping tonight I won’t kill myself, trying to stay in your life I got no distance left to run When you see me Please turn your back and walk away I don’t want to see you Cos i know the dreams that you keep is wearing me When your coming down, think of me here I got no distance left to run It’s over, I knew it would end this way I hope you’re with someone who makes you feel That this life is the night And it settles down, stays around Spends more time with you I got no distance left to run

Currently listening:
13
By Blur
Release date: 23 March, 1999
9:54 PM