happy

sighh

when you sigh it feels so much better. it restarts and kickstarts thoughts. sighh. feels good. i got a $20000 scholarship for school. vetty good.

im looking forward to attending school this fall. i need to undo the monotany of it all. spent some time in pennsylvannia this week checking out the college my sister attends as a possible transfer possibility. excellent school. extremely bright students attend. quaint campus. the people were sorta nerdy. not really my cup of tea. I really wanna study. i need it. Ive read an enormous amount of books on my own accord the past year. personal developement and such. probably close to 30. which, i must say, is more than ive ever read to date. it feels good to have something to fall back on. i like ordering books off amazon… any book i choose.. as many as i want on a subject… and just reading and reading… and becoming increadingly knowledgeable about the subject. its awesome. you can like program your brain to know and retain anything. i think id like to learn a few more languages. its so easy. you just need to escape the disease of laziness. hm. i feel better.