bitchin

gosh…

I’ve been doing tooo much. I feel like all I do is think or think about doing.

Although this is a bit taxing, it’s pretty amazing how its worked out. Before I always would think but have nothing important to think about. Recently, for the first time in my life, I’ve given myself so many commitments deemed important, all I do is think- and it’s getting me somewhere! finallyyy!
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soo…i’m in a pretty solid trance. I’ve been non stop since I got back from break. Every day I wake up at 7:30am.. hit snooze twice.. take a shower.. head to breakfast.. then drift to class from 8:30-12:30… followed by lunch and anywhere from 2-3 meetings or appointments in the afternoon on any given weekday. Usually I eat dinner at 5:00… finish up with meetings around 7:00… go lift… come back at 9:00… do homework till 12:00 and try getting to bed. Free time in between involves studying or planning or e-mailing or writing… Every day..

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It’s been pretty out lately. Finally starting to get sunny and not so cloudy and gray. Beautiful crisp blue late winter skies. The trees are still bare but it doesn’t look so bad when it’s sunny. Anything but gray and wet. ew.

I love learning and knowledge… I loveeeeeeeeee learning new things.

I despise cigarettes. It happens once and a while… but I always chastise myself in the back of my mind. I see people huddled with their face stuffed in their jackets struggling to light their cigarettes with matches. They endure the cold and singe their bangs or nostril hairs just to get it lit. Then then suck it down like it was the key to some vacuous cavern in their chest. They suck it, and hold it in, and blow upwards in a euphoric satisfactory kind of way. ew. not cool.

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I’m growin a lil beard.
I can’t wait till it gets warm enough to wear shorts and sunbath…and swim in brooks and splash in streams. I tried wearning sandals in some weird hope that it’d get warmer sooner… or that i’d convince myself it was warmer. Not a clever idea. toooo too cold.

i’m about to yawn… too tired.. night
night night!