Uneasy

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I’ve been having some uneasy feelings lately… about all sorts of things. I’ll speculate its a result of a subconscious anxiety stemming from the whole transfer application process… I’m waiting to hear from the schools now. Even with a flawless college academic performance, marred by a horrific high school experience, supplemented by amazing extracurriculars, great professor recommendations and, in my opinion, ‘okay’ personal essays… I am extremely skeptical about the upcoming decisions. I feel that I could’ve had a better personal statement.. but everyone could have a better personal statement. I also feel I totally forgot to mention why I did so crappy in high school ( emotional stresses, moving a bunch, attending three different highschools, etc). Adding that detail would shed light on much of the questions my high school track record may pose.

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Also… my summer internship… just thinking about it makes me ill… oh I’m doing it…. but its gonna be hell… and I’ll make the best of it… but itll be painful.