Like when.

I like when people like me. It’s a turn on. I’m sure everyone feels this way. And maybe I need to clarify… I am not necessarily talking adulation, but rather admiration or wonder. ha. How narcissistic!

I’m reading ‘Civilization and Its Discontents’ by Freud. My goodness do I love his analysis. It speaks right to me. Its not sugarcoated, just straight to the heart of the matter. I mean, he obviously has his biases for and against some issues, and these become an apparent theme, but all around he does a wonderful job remaining pretty objective about some polarizing issues.

lalala.

On another note. Its 2am. I am on question 1 of 10 on my prelab. I have class at 910am! boo. I have so much reading to catch up on its ridiculous. I just read all the work I was behind on today… but never got around to getting to the stuff I was suppose to read. Soo… I’m still behind!

Poo-bear.

There is a beautiful girl my political science class. I would love to talk to her… not just cause I think she’s pretty… but because she seems so approachable. BUT… I fail to care. Is this the reason? or is it that i might get shot down? I’ve thought of this… its not that I’ll get shot down… cause I really wouldn’t approach her with the attitude that I had any interest other than getting to know her… and who doesn’t like people who are interested in them? I mean as long as they aren’t being a creepo. Girls and guys alike know who these are. They hold eye contact for just a tad too long… they smile when its not really appropriate yet. They close in on you outta no where. And more than anything… they just don’t contribute to your overall well being. You’re too distracted by their awkward uncomfortable behavior. Anyway..

This girl. Truth is, and I’ve thought about it, I don’t have a good enough reason to talk to her. Even if I did, I wouldn’t care to put the energy into her. I would, more than likely, want her to do all the work. I need to add that I have talked to this girl before, and we hit it off great, in a casual friendly way, but I wasn’t so captivated that I felt the need for a second encounter in the near future.

I guess I’m hoping that the next time I’m talking to her the chemistry will ignite and it’ll be an effortless and rejuvenating experience. Until then, I have no desire to conjure the energy to give myself a reason to talk to her. One day maybe. Academics is first. Then clubs. Then food. Then sleep. In that order. Soon work will be in there… near the top.

Gosh.. 205am. I should get to work… tomorrow I have class from 910am till 5pm.

booo!