burning.

I didn’t save much free time for myself today. I need to be much more efficient with my time… First: go to bed earlier. I can’t believe I’m still up.

I need to go to the gym earlier and eat dinner earlier. How am I suppose to have any free time to read or write if all I do is work, lift and eat?

I haven’t talked to the girlfriend… although she contacted our mutual friend and expressed her hysteria. He asked me how he should respond… this got me a little upset. Upset in that, what the fuck is she doing. Give me space, woman. Get a life… stop thinking in crisis mode. Everything is alright…I just need time to breath and collect my thoughts. We’re young here… its not like we’re married or have been dating for years. Chill the fuck out.

Anywho…

I read news articles allll day I work. I have a program on my iphone that allows me to listen to free audio books. All the free ones are older, written by authors that have long since past away. I mostly download the philosophy or psychology ones.

I also have this program that lets me download ebooks… again, only old and outdated…. but they are my favorite anyway. I should cease reading the news and begin asking questions… and find books to answer those questions… and read them. Thats what I should do. The last book I did that with was Radical Empiricism by William James regarding consciousness and epistemology and experience. Fascinating…. and I still need to finish.

The news seems so impending recently… we are at the precipice of worldwide calamity and everything seems to be converging simultaneously. Or thats how the news likes to portray it to invoke an emotional response from the readership in order to sell their paper. Anyway…

My eyes are heavy and burning. Bed time. Night.