Time

I need feeling. I am listless. Aimless. Emotionally void of fiery passion at the moment. I haven’t been organizing my thoughts. Instead I’ve been putting them off, pretending that I’ve got it together, that my thoughts will take care of themselves without any upkeep. Thats as unrealistic as believing a garden could survive without regular natural or artificial irrigation. Nothing will grow, only stagnate and die.

Time. Time management. This ‘life’ we live in, this collection of vast experience that we poke around in, is nothing but a duration. A life is nothing tangible, your experiences and memories and relationships and achievements are all a product of time. Nothing happens without a measurable duration.

The more I value my time, the more I value my life. How I spend my time defines how I spend my life. It defines what I think about, my associates, strengths, weaknesses, loves, passions, skill, etc. Time dictates and develops what I am good at, and what I’m bad at. If I don’t spend any time studying, or learning, there is no way I will be a knowledgeable person. If I spend one hour, that will yield proportional results. If I spend 4 hours, my life will be that much more molded by that exposure.

That’s what its all about. Exposure. Impressions. Memories. Sensory stimulation. The longer I subject my senses, my thoughts, to an end or goal, the deeper rooted those impressions become. The stronger they become, the more unwavering they are. Equally, the more they gain priority in my thoughts. Even casual thoughts and dreams can pervade and alter your world view.

If one could program his life by allotting hours toward honing skills and/or knowledge based on 24 hours a day, whereas the collective hours-allotted result in exponential gains in that area, how or what would we really spend our life doing, or thinking? By spreading the hours too thin one wouldn’t gain any deep knowledge or refine skills that are better than anyone else’s. By spending too much time in a specific area of development, one would gain an exceptional, almost genius, level of insight. On the other hand, too much in one area would jeopardize the development of many, maybe pragmatic or emotional skills needed for social integration.

The fact is, when we take control of our lives, we can design our being, and plan our life and its development. When we accept ultimate responsibility for our lives, for our time and decisions (or lack thereof), we are able to literally program ourselves and unlock potential in any area, whether its in the realm of knowledge or intelligence or relationships or success or money or emotions or whatever.

But what stops us from making the decision? Lack of will? Lack of drive? Are we too comfortable? Have we grown too content, too pacified by our circumstance. Are we settling for average and mediocre results? A life that blends seamlessly together with everyone else but fails to possess originality or utility or beauty? That functions like all the other threads stranded and weaved side by side, but never stands out?

Do we play it safe? Are we afraid of failure? Our inadequacy? The hardship? The rejection? Perhaps we are terrified that we possess limitations? Perhaps that is the most damaging fear of all.