Differences

When I was an elementary school in Marshalltown, IA, a young Mexican girl visited our classroom. While she was our age, she was slower than most of her peers and spoke poor English in comparison. Additionally, she had one small stub of an arm. Despite the teacher’s best efforts to encourage everyone to interact and get along, her presence was polarizing to most students in our class room. Even at a young age, this struck me deeply. I had been raised by parents who exposed me to diversity at a young age. My mother was always an example of loving those who are different, who are hurting, and who struggle. Until then, I had not even known that one person, whatever their condition or appearance, was any different than anyone else. In my youthful eyes, we were all the same. This experience was the first time I had every witnessed the effects of being different, and it was strange.

I remember reaching out to her and playing with her and the teachers assistant, even when all the other kids wouldn’t. I remembering enjoying my time with her and realizing that there was nothing inherently different about her at all. I couldn’t figure out what the problem was. This experience, while small, was a transformative moment in my life. It illustrated the struggle people face when they appear ‘different’. It always showed me that people are more similar than they are different. When we focus on the differences, they take over and taint the beauty of our similarities.

Telling Character

A man never describes his own character so clearly as when he describes another.
-Johann Paul Friedrich Richter

This quote resonates with me. How people describe the world is an indication of their attitude towards the world. If you want a simple judgement test of someones character, you need only examine the attitude they hold for the world. This includes their beliefs about circumstances, people, relationships, and even the beliefs they maintain about themselves.

Ram.Bull.

Ramble.

What is attention deficit disorder? The inability to effectively repeat, mimic, or imitate.  The inability to conform to static behaviors and maintain rigid habits.

Math is broadly rigid and narrowly flexible.  Math is a process of iteration where rules are applied and cross applied until a solution is worked out. Language is broadly flexible and narrowly rigid. Language is a creative process governed by general conventions.

My theory of everything is an economic theory of mind. Central is the role of demands on equilibrium states. It holds that forces, positive or negative, interact with innate self-preservation mechanisms that result in the formation of mind.

Why language? Why am I so fascinated by language? It is an expression of my being, just like any other expression.

offscouring

I really don’t have anything interesting on my mind at the moment.

This weekend was less than filling. I’m actually struggling to recall what it is I did exactly. Drinking. Eating. Shooting. Sleeping. Etc. Thursday night I spent an exorbitant amount of money on a lot of worthless crap like food and alcohol.

I’m not in the mood to pick up girls. Haven’t been in some time. Sure, getting some is nice, but it’s such a hassle. The girls expect games. They expect the manipulation. Its such a pain trying to convince them otherwise.

Money is everything. Power, freedom, opportunity, education, relationships. Everything. It’s a wonder I don’t spend every waking of my life pursuing it. If you don’t have money, you’re stuck. Stuck with what you’ve got. And that’s usually not that much.

Pretty boring at the moment. My mind is thinking. All I really wanna do is study. I should do it every waking moment. It should be the number one priority in my life. Bassnectar is good.

Today I drove my sis to do some work. Went to watching some nerds larp, but only about four were there so we abandoned. Blah.blah.blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Thought is Supreme

Whenever you go out-of-doors, draw the chin in, carry the crown of the head high, and fill the lungs to the utmost; drink in the sunshine; greet your friends with a smile, and put soul into every handclasp. Do not fear being misunderstood and do not waste a minute thinking about your enemies. Try to fix firmly in your mind what you would like to do; and then, without veering off direction, you will move straight to the goal. Keep your mind on the great and splendid things you would like to do, and then, as the days go gliding away, you will find yourself unconsciously seizing upon the opportunities that are required for the fulfillment of your desire, just as the coral insect takes from the ruining tide the element it needs. Picture in your mind the able, earnest, useful person you desire to be, and the thought you hold is hourly transforming you into that particular individual…Thought is supreme. Preserve a right mental attitude-the attitude of courage, frankness, and good cheer. To think rightly is to create. All things come through desire and every sincere prayer is answered. We become like that on which our hearts are fixed. Carry your chin in and the crown of your head high. We are gods in the chrysalis.

-Elbert Hubbard