Month: July 2023

The discipline of exercise ensures clarity of mind and an overall levity, which lessens care in the most productive way. Being too careful is stressful. It becomes a burden, a stress. And stress takes on a material gravity that increasingly weighs on your soul, accumulating in crevasses until you become figuratively stiff and the imagination is immobilized.

I love my son. He is a great kid. There are no words that describe the affection and adoration I feel for him.

A good attitude and a dedicated work ethic. These ensure things not only move, but move in the right direction. People do want positive energy. They want to do business with people they trust and like.

At the end of the day, everything is bullshit. Everything can be learned, and each day we use a fraction of a fraction of everything we know, and that fraction of a fraction can be learned by anyone. So I feel these roles we fill in the world are mostly charades. Once you are able to demonstrate confidence, and speak with authority, because you trust the words will integrate with someone elses worldview, and they will respond accordingly, even predictably, then you can walk on water.

Management consulting is a lot of bullshit. What it comes down to is: 1) do I like this person/ want to associate with this person 2) are they smart 3) do they work hard 4) can I depend on them 5) will working with them improve my quality of life.

The ideas are just kind of performative. We wave them around, enter words into presentations and act as if the words actually reflet some structural integrity of something, of a team or person or culture. “methodology”. Basically: are you disciplined, do you follow a process, do you track the process, are you accountable etc. You don’t need an explicit methodology to sell if those qualities are inherent to your character. But, we must sell ourselves. And so these performances serve to woo an audience into believing our values or ideals align with theirs, and as a consequence, favorable outcomes will result, despite cultural and organizational and systemic challenges and problems continue to exist. These performative dances are made on the outside and then we are invited on the inside, and then its just working together. There is no program or protocol. It’s just people engaged in relationships, synced to a common purpose and goal, with agreed upon standards for executing behaviors.

I must wake early for a 7am meeting, so I should sleep now.

I look forward to making it a habit of journaling before bed.

I bought a $300 laptop for writing. Specifically for writing before bed. I have 2012 17″ Macbook Pro that is too bulky and buggy to write with, especially in bed. I bought a new desktop, but that’s only useful when I’m at my desk, my workstation. I still need to seize moments to write, and this is my attempt to eliminate every excuse and limitation.

The keys feel odd under my fingers. I will adjust.