Suppressed

I feel suppressed. How do I feel. Today I didn’t do much. laid around. watched movies. thought. no reading. read the news. the world is overwhelming. ate out with my best bro brand. blah. I need passion. I feel like meaning escapes me. I don’t believe in much anymore. thats the truth of it. My God seems to be in my head. my world is created by me. It seems so dull. So figured out. Is it so easy? or so hard? blah.