Compilation of posts: Feb 5- March 3

Thursday, March 03, 2005 

hearts everywhere. oh yea. they’re all broken like mine. only this time i broke them all. i want to make things better but the hearts have left me. im alone now with my broken heart. here ill stay until im rescued.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005 

sooo. today i had a friggen awesome time. no worries. not a worry in the world. i feel so goooood. so what did i do you ask? first… today was a beautiful day. jon and i longboarded alll of palm beach. the whole palm beach area. all of clematis and city place every nook and cranny. we went to the island and went to the beach and continued to explore. worth avenue. in and out of alley ways. chilled at the park in palm beach. sat on the docks. saw the sun light the sky up and paint an aweing array of colors across the horizon. we climbed plam trees and giant crazy trees like 50ft high. had an awesome time. in the middle of the city there was an abandoned house… i thought itd be a good idea to break in. sooo i did. and we explored the whole inside. it was old… if it was fixed up it be a killer pad. it was fun. i felt like a little kid with his hand in a cookie jar. so we went to jons house in west palm checked out the construction and proceeded to the wellington mall to…. i dont know why we went. but we did and had a good time. my legs are sore and im tired. but ill go to bed with a smile on my face.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005 

Binge everything. eating. starving. binge drinking water, alcohol, bingeing with women. bingeing with not giving a fuck. bingeing on skipping. BINGE. i have become a BINGER. (is that a word? one who binges?) anyway last night. i got so drunk…. that i dont remember when i left teh clubhouse. nor do i remember half the events of the night. i drank and drank and drank. and bonged so many beers i lost count. ill tell more later

Monday, February 28, 2005 

Current mood:  drunk

first me and jon are drunk as fuck im at teh clubhouse with gab sebas carlos nick and jon fuck as drunk man i am officially enlisted in the marines im leaving sept12 …a long ways away but i am officially apart of the corps last nigh i spent the day in miami in a hotel awaiting meps with jon we werent allowed to leave but we got broed so we did leave walked the streets all night wen to publix i decided that dry ICE is fucin cool as shit so i bought some and yea good idea bought some water bottles and shit and we were making dry ice bombs in the fuckin parking lot 20oz bottles 2 Liter bottles fuckin righ man soooooooooooooooooooooooooo loud and INTENSE dude intense what a rush BAM loud you know it we ordered pizza hut at the hotel we wtched tv and passed the fuck out while experimetned with the rest of our dry ice with cool speical effects l sooo we woke up at fuckin like 400 thats uh 4 HOURS of SLEEP SLEEP what the fuck is that i got non eof taht shit and we spent the whole sday till 300 at MEPs what a day all kinda craxzy shit whatever i got home had dinner with the fam the frigen fam and then wen tto home depot made a fuckin beer bong pounded fuckin an 18 pack plus 7 beers whatever the fuck that is so now im drinking vodka and orange juice side note cause im not hardcore enought o chug it straightand fuc im drunk soooooooooooooo ive decided to become a thinking man yea at least for the next 7 months and ive decided to become a man whore cause love isnt real its a made up fairy tale its a heightening of emotions where you cant control them and there is no oher way o interpret those feelibngs except for dubbing hem love i love i love select women /woman its too much to expect someone to love you like you love them wayy to much you want to believe that when you love someone your love and compassion isnt in vain but its fake its never the same so fuck IT i am still waiting for that woman maybe i met her maybe i havent but im waiting for love to be real for me SOMEONE FIND ME AND LOVE ME AND LET LOVE FLOURISH no nonsense

Sunday, February 20, 2005 

i realized how much i enjoy chewing gum with ice. i also realized how much i enjoy the company of my friends. Half the time, i enjoy the act of living and everything it entails. when a soft breeze blows gently through your hair and across your face. i like walking barefoot. even on hot asphalt after the beach, although it hurts at the time. i like wrapping myself in my one and only blanket i sleep with, and burying my face deep within my pillows. i really like the fact that i will never really have it (life) figured out. that makes me smile. whenever i look at my bracelet covered wrists i smile at my heart. i like when i get a hug and a wisper in my ear. doing things without having a reason for doing them isnt a bad thing. find a reason after youve done it. waking up. better yet, waking up to a room drenched in the fresh morning sun, and finding someone you love waiting for you at your side. moving is fun. running. walking. skating. rolling. whichever you choose, choose to enjoy it, and you not an adult yet. i think that adults have thier life together. they all act like they do anyway. and until i can at least act like i have it together ill accept that im still a kid. im tired of being tired. of having weighty things on my mind. things that never cease to leave my thoughts. things of importance but i always question how much they really mean. i like pretending im super smart and that no one else thinks like i do. whether or not thats the case i care not. i like making myself pick apart tiny things that arent worth picking apart, but ill do it anyways and have a good time with it. i dont like failing unless i choose to do so. so i always findmyself choosing to fail. its a horrible disease. when i try to succeed and i fail i am crushed. my safe mode is failure. not good. i hate when i say things and i have to take them back. i am a confused person. i follow my heart and it does not have a brain. it knows no logic. so i get confused and say things that i might not have meant. but dont hold it against me forever. i always mean well. always.

Currently listening:
Lifted or The Story Is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground
By Bright Eyes
Release date: 13 August, 2002
Friday, February 18, 2005 

random pictures from the Snowball Dance and whatnot. NJ was COLD

Tuesday, February 15, 2005 

^^ whoever says love isn’t a painful thing has never loved.

Currently listening:
By Death Cab for Cutie
Release date: 07 October, 2003
Thursday, February 10, 2005 

UPDATE: going to NJ tomorrow. see my friends. jamie o is comin to the big FL the 23rd of march. i currently weigh 180lbs. and i have been doin good.

Currently listening:
We Will Become Silhouettes
By Postal Service
Release date: 08 February, 2005
Sunday, February 06, 2005 

enough is enough. no one can convince me otherwise. its past the point of return. maybe in the distant future, but now is not the time and i will no longer chase after stale dreams.

Saturday, February 05, 2005 

im fed up and blah……….. poo.

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