the tv blurbs in the distant. candescent rays stretch their fingers to the far reaches of the room. the hum of electric machinery puts my mind into a hypnotic daze. I peruse over my introspective findings, carefully examining my character. Im trying understand why people try convincing themselves and others that there are monsters out there waiting for an opprotunity to ravage their hearts and minds. i uncover weakness in my walls of defense. ive assembled a wall around the idealism that ive formed to match perfection. Ive mapped out an ideal life that covers every conceieveable need. Life, Wife, Job, Social logically it can be harmonious and sound. emotional entanglement throws off logic creating weakness in my de