press.sure.

not reading enough. hmph.

I am stressing. For a lot of reasons. My pride causes me to run from the pressures. I just found out a student loan was disapproved. I need to figure out a way to come up with $18,000 by next Friday for the past semesters payment. If I don’t, I don’t go to school next Spring, I owe $18,000, I can’t apply to another school because they won’t release my grades or transcripts. This is a major blow for me. And its happening during finals week. Not the best time to be dealing with the stake of your future.

My father is unbelievable. I don’t understand my family. ugh. I think they live in a fantasy world. or maybe its me? Either way, its causing immense dissonance.