Sessed

I’m at the restaurant Boucherie located off Bleaker St in Nyc drinking an Old Fashion, waiting for a burger. I’m in the middle of my second week of training in Newark for my new position as regional sales manager of a global conglomerate. It’s my 4th week of work. I’m apart of a relatively small but fast growing division within the division.

I moved into my new apartment last week located in Belmont, CA.

If I hit all my goals I’ll be making $190k my first year, with my $120k salary, no including other perks. This isn’t much when you live in the Bay Area California. But I’m single, so I can stretch it. My rent is $1625 for my 180 sqft room and private bath. My roommate is a 23 year old Jewish Stanford alumni.

I am in a peak state at this moment of my life. I have unchained from people, ideas, insecurities, limitations. I have embraced change. I am resilient. I possess grand visions for my potential.

My goal is to obliterate my sales goals. Set the standard for the division. Get promoted to National Sales Manager within 1-3 years, hold the position for 2 more years, then graduate from my 3-4 year MBA program at Berkeley, and get into private equity with a focus on automation and technology.

That’s my ambitious goal.

I want to double my sales numbers every year. Whatever my goals are, I want 2-5x.

My current goal is $300k of proactive business a year. My personal goal is $600k-1.5 mil in proactive sales. That’s $50k to $150k a month.

That’s very reasonable. I was doing $1.5 mil at KJ.

I am devoting myself to my goals.

I aim to study religiously for my GMAT. I can accomplish whatever I focus my mind to. It’s a matter of eliminating distraction. I need a 750 GMAT score. No wishful thinking. I need to commit 120-150 hours of deep study to this task. I need to practice speed. I need to test under pressure. I need a 750 to get into Berkeley.

My verbal score will be perfect.

My quant score will need lots of work. Many of the problems and solutions are not intuitive, but they are never beyond comprehension.

I can master whatever I set my mind to.

Why do I want to accomplish? Why the maniacal, methodical obsession with success? With growth? With sales achievement? With MBA? I want to see if I can. And I believe I can. I believe that with enough obsession anything is possible. How much do I believe that, in my core?

I will study, I will plan, I will read, i will be a maniac.

I need to focus, but I need to socialize more. Read. Deep work. All that. But I need to get out and meet people and loosen up and make friends.

2 hours later:

but upon second thought. I shouldn’t be so quick to jump ship. Call it flow, call it focus, craftsmanship, expertise, mastery… there’s something to be said for sticking to something for a long while.

I need to prioritize my goals and identify the top 5 out of my 25+ and eliminate all the desires or goals or accomplishments I gravitate towards and completely censor them.

My focus is the MBA.

My focus is the career sales and management and leadership success: 3-5x growth

My focus is reading and learning

My focus is writing

My focus is building a family along the way.

These are all means to an end.

What is my life philosophy? My life goal? To flourish.

Mind body spirit.