Comilation of posts: Nov 4-Dec 6

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

my head hurts.
Current mood: drunk
ugh. my head hurts. i need to chill out. you hear me? lemme chill.
2:25 AM

Friday, December 02, 2005

resort.

we drank the biggest bottle of yeager they had to offer. we were rockstars. we were drunk. we went to the resort. we continued to drink until we saw stars. we danced with the stars. we got it on with all the beautiful women. four hours later we called it a night. i woke up on the floor of my kitchen.
12:50 PM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

shower. fresh.

i was in the shower and i was like wow. i make alot of mistakes. no big deal as long as i learn from my mistakes. and i was like whoa. the more mistakes i make the more i’ll learn. thats a nice concept. but im not convinced its flawless.

on another note. people need to look fresh. get fresh.
3:46 PM

Thursday, November 24, 2005

bugs in my shoes
alright. i love this weather. my fingers and hands are all dried up and what not. i get to where multiple layers. woo. my parents are 1100 miles away while i spend thanksgiving otherwise alone. friends are great. i realized animals are super high mantainence. buttt… music is really good. um. being alone for a week isnt so bad.

i wish the leaves were falling. that would be real nice. a nice coat of snow would also be great. buuuttt its florida and those little things no longer exist. being 19 is a pretty random age. you get no additional responsibilities, no one takes you seriously, everyone expects you to be an adult, etc., its great.

8:44 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

alright,
alright so today i started off feeling restless. and than it grew. so im gonna just type: FUCK
9:28 AM

Monday, November 21, 2005

right said fred. too sexy.
bunch of guys get drunk, strip off thier clothes and sing “im too sexy” infront of a bar for karioke night. i happened to be apart of the choas. it was cool. after i somehow order forty dollars worth of sushi, the night was not over. oh no. time to down the rest of a bottle, and top it off with some blunt tokeage. my world was udderly unrecognizeable. i was watching as people in their drunkeness attempted to disassemble my jeep. removing the doors, and the top , and whatever else against my drunk wishes. eh. to say the least i dont know how i made it home that night
Currently listening:
Gutter Phenomenon
By Every Time I Die
Release date: 23 August, 2005
11:18 AM

Friday, November 04, 2005

Pre-game, GAMED, post-gamed, POST post-gamed. WOW

alright. so wednesday night. dude. i love sushi. like i love women. not as much but you get the idea. so here it is.

Mailbu, gingerale, poolside conversations, karioke, sushi bar (BUT NO SUSHI!), smashed people singing wonderfully, long island ice tea, key lime shots, greatful deads, etc etc, yum yum people putting chop sticks where they dont belong, hooting, hollaring, laughing, smiling, drunk sake drinkers, order PAPA JOHNS at a resturant and eat it. realize wow im tanked, but far from done. say goodnight to the ladies.

hit up a bar. i know that dude.AMBERBOCK, irish car bombs, Yeager Bombs, yum yum, tasty pussies, more beer, pool sharks, watching ugly chicks get really really pretty, beligerent behavior, chicken wings, juke box, high fives, talking to townies, hitting on their girl friends, watching them get real mad, watching us not care, watching it escalate, keeping my mouth shut, watching my friends run thier mouth, WELCOME TO PALM BEACH MOTHER FUCKER, run. get into the car. watch ten grown men chase after us and karate chop our car. we want revenge. go back. they fled. watch anger build and hands fly through giant glass windows. multiple glass windows. bleeding. bad idea. run back to the car. drive home.

post-post-gamed. finished off the malibu. dont remeber how i got to bed.woke up. WOWOWOWOWOWOWOW

HALLOWEEN PARTY BASHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 05

ok. so. this is how it went down. what the hell are we gonna do tonight? its halloween. um. last night i had a rockin time at that bonfire. hell yea. lets have another bonfire. yea. you think we should refill the keg? dude why the hell not.

that was the beginning to a hello-sweet night.

KEGS. MORE KEGS. BEER BONGS. MORE BEER BONGS. girls, girls, girls, costumes, a roarin bonfire, PLENTY of people i like, smiling, laughing, drunkkkkk, free fire wood compliments of wilma, loud music, yelling, KEG STANDs, first timers, ninjas, kissing, smoking, i know that dude.

then. some stupid kid shows up. starts shit. runs his mouth. all hell breaks loose. they lose. we dominate. he sends some kids to show us a lesson. at our party. bad idea.

Mr. Six-foot-five, 300 pounds rolls up with a posse and a two by four in hand. hes really cool. Mr. Confederate army tells everyone at the party that hes gonna find the kid that hit his boy even if hes got to fight everyone till he finds him. pushin people around yellin etc., BELIGERENT is the ONLY word i can think of. and no one likes beligerent. sooo. we convince him that hes definately a pussy if hes holding a two by four. he puts it down. cut to the chase. HE FUCKIN GOT HIS ASS BEAT BY EVERYONE. and i dont feel bad. this giant was on the ground and lost quicker than i can blink. it makes me feel so good that stupid people lose.

to everyone there: WHAT A FUCKIN NIGHT.
11:28 AM

Compilation of posts: Oct 9- Nov 2

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

HALLOWEEN PARTY BASHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 05

ok. so. this is how it went down. what the hell are we gonna do tonight? its halloween. um. last night i had a rockin time at that bonfire. hell yea. lets have another bonfire. yea. you think we should refill the keg? dude why the hell not.

that was the beginning to a hello-sweet night.

KEGS. MORE KEGS. BEER BONGS. MORE BEER BONGS. girls, girls, girls, costumes, a roarin bonfire, PLENTY of people i like, smiling, laughing, drunkkkkk, free fire wood compliments of wilma, loud music, yelling, KEG STANDs, first timers, ninjas, kissing, smoking, i know that dude.

then. some stupid kid shows up. starts shit. runs his mouth. all hell breaks loose. they lose. we dominate. he sends some kids to show us a lesson. at our party. bad idea.

Mr. Six-foot-five, 300 pounds rolls up with a posse and a two by four in hand. hes really cool. Mr. Confederate army tells everyone at the party that hes gonna find the kid that hit his boy even if hes got to fight everyone till he finds him. pushin people around yellin etc., BELIGERENT is the ONLY word i can think of. and no one likes beligerent. sooo. we convince him that hes definately a pussy if hes holding a two by four. he puts it down. cut to the chase. HE FUCKIN GOT HIS ASS BEAT BY EVERYONE. and i dont feel bad. this giant was on the ground and lost quicker than i can blink. it makes me feel so good that stupid people lose.

to everyone there: WHAT A FUCKIN NIGHT.
11:28 AM

Monday, October 31, 2005

kegs, out-of-control, 6 mile expeditions, more kegs, bonfires, off-roading is that it?

find a shell. take it.

keg, house party, women, beer pong, good friends, close friends, best friends, shitloads of liquer,singing songs, smoking joints, smoking bowls, watching eskimo samuri’s chopping the living hell out of everything. including all the red cups. 30 second keg stands. followed by two 2 second kegs stands. cops. oh no. empty the keg? oh no. heres the shell from last night. continue to drink until we realize its late. until we realize clocks are set back an hour. woot. party long and harder. listen to drunk girls try to sing. watching drunk girls lap dance all the drunk men with girlfriends at the party. watching drunk girls get shut down by the sober single guys. evade young drunk girls that want to lose their virginity. watching beer pong. watching drunk kids smoke cigarettes in motorcylce helmets. laughing. alot. wrestleing. breaking glass with my hands. watching girls bathe in my blood. laughing about it. getting tired. hungry. decided it was a great idea to walk home. running, jumping, tripping, swimming, falling, 6miles miles later= pass out infront of my house. wake up from hunger. eat 100 burritos. almost. pass out. wake up at 6. still drunk. watch the sunrise. ask myself wtf am i doing awake at this hour. oh yea jakes got a date. considerate. pick up my jeep. drive home drunk. pass out until i sober up. wake with a smile on my face.

what the hell are you gonna do on a sunday night? bonfire. keg. alot of hurricane demolished wood. gasoline. 25 close friends. offroad. walk on burning embers. get loud. dance. listen to music. eat roasted marshmellows. watch drunk little girls try to make them without igniteing themselves aflame. go hardcore offroading. get stuck. get unstuck. hold on tight. launch girls and friends out of the back of the jeep. try and find them once i realize they arent there anymore. convince people that walking home at that hour and in that condition is not a good idea. take drunk people home. pass out. wake up with blisters on my feet and ash all over my body. look at my jeep and ask myself what the hell did you do last night. beer on the inside and out. half the forests leaves covering the inside. woah cool.

need i say more?

i figured you get the idea.

4:08 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

a selfish blog.

cause its all about me sharing things about myself:

im learning alot. alllooooottt. everyday i am learning more and more about life and myself. ya. and everyday life becomes clearer. not even better. just clearer. Im not afraid of anything. im learning not to be afraid of people, my feelings and other trivial things. I find that my energy could be better used doing contrstructive things to add to the quality and understanding of life, rather than worrying, getting anxiety, and being negetive. so yes. a big change in me. yea ive gone through plenty of changes. oh yea. but they were all external and motivated by all the worng reasons. these are much more real and honest. they are motivated by my desire to achieve and succeed to my full potential. not for the satisfaction of other people, but solely for me.

The people you surround yourself with is a good indicator of the person you strive to be, or be like. The things that motivatate those people and the goals they set for themselves is a good indicator of what motivates you and the goals you have set for yourself. ive resolved to take advantage of knowing that, and take action by surrounding myself with positive uplifting people. i love people but not everyone is heading in the direction i want to go. the goals they set for themselves are not as clear or sound as mine. so yea. while i can maintain relationships with countless people, id rather not spend countless hours with someone whos mentality might just rub me in a way i dont have any desire to go. yeaa. you finish it up.

Routine keeps me focused and motivated. Thats why i must work as often as i do. its not as much that im desperate for money (i need it tho) as much as its keeping myself in a steady routine.

Im reading alot. a shitload. more than ive ever read in my life. more than i ever thought i could read. im currently reading 3 books and listening to another book on CD. I have an overwhelming urge to learn like never before. Im convinced that its based on the premise that i have a desire to be the best mike i can be to myself and to others. In the past two months ive rid myself of countless bad habits that littered my life for years. as a result my quality of life has improved ten fold.

Being healthy has a huge affect on your wellness and how you feel. I realized that i can never expect to think of great things or positive things if i dont physically feel great and nourished. Ive been eating very sound, well balanced meals the past few months and from the start there was an immediate and direct improvement on my mood. I continued to expand on my healthy approach to life to make sure im physically active. When i sit at home and do nothing, i notice im not motivated or excited and i have no real reason to be so. But when i get outside… run, lift, surf, skate, or even take trips and adventures to places ive been meaning to go or see, i find that im more motivated and excited about life. this synergistic effect on me is something i genuinely look forward to everyday. anyway.

so yea. i dont know if i need to go on. thats enough of me for now.

Currently listening:
Back to Bedlam
By James Blunt
Release date: 04 October, 2005
11:36 AM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

I FINALLY ACQUIRED A CELL PHONE.

For all of you who have grown irritated by the lack of communication you’ve recieved from me for the past few months, fret no more. I have a cell phone. and im just as excited as you are. you could make my day and leave an obnoxious message telling me its about time.

561-339-4274

kegs, out-of-control, 6 mile expeditions, more kegs, bonfires, off-roading is that it?

find a shell. take it.

keg, house party, women, beer pong, good friends, close friends, best friends, shitloads of liquer,singing songs, smoking joints, smoking bowls, watching eskimo samuri’s chopping the living hell out of everything. including all the red cups. 30 second keg stands. followed by two 2 second kegs stands. cops. oh no. empty the keg? oh no. heres the shell from last night. continue to drink until we realize its late. until we realize clocks are set back an hour. woot. party long and harder. listen to drunk girls try to sing. watching drunk girls lap dance all the drunk men with girlfriends at the party. watching drunk girls get shut down by the sober single guys. evade young drunk girls that want to lose their virginity. watching beer pong. watching drunk kids smoke cigarettes in motorcylce helmets. laughing. alot. wrestleing. breaking glass with my hands. watching girls bathe in my blood. laughing about it. getting tired. hungry. decided it was a great idea to walk home. running, jumping, tripping, swimming, falling, 6miles miles later= pass out infront of my house. wake up from hunger. eat 100 burritos. almost. pass out. wake up at 6. still drunk. watch the sunrise. ask myself wtf am i doing awake at this hour. oh yea jakes got a date. considerate. pick up my jeep. drive home drunk. pass out until i sober up. wake with a smile on my face.

what the hell are you gonna do on a sunday night? bonfire. keg. alot of hurricane demolished wood. gasoline. 25 close friends. offroad. walk on burning embers. get loud. dance. listen to music. eat roasted marshmellows. watch drunk little girls try to make them without igniteing themselves aflame. go hardcore offroading. get stuck. get unstuck. hold on tight. launch girls and friends out of the back of the jeep. try and find them once i realize they arent there anymore. convince people that walking home at that hour and in that condition is not a good idea. take drunk people home. pass out. wake up with blisters on my feet and ash all over my body. look at my jeep and ask myself what the hell did you do last night. beer on the inside and out. half the forests leaves covering the inside. woah cool.

need i say more?

i figured you get the idea.

a selfish blog.

a selfish blog.
cause its all about me sharing things about myself:

im learning alot. alllooooottt. everyday i am learning more and more about life and myself. ya. and everyday life becomes clearer. not even better. just clearer. Im not afraid of anything. im learning not to be afraid of people, my feelings and other trivial things. I find that my energy could be better used doing contrstructive things to add to the quality and understanding of life, rather than worrying, getting anxiety, and being negetive. so yes. a big change in me. yea ive gone through plenty of changes. oh yea. but they were all external and motivated by all the worng reasons. these are much more real and honest. they are motivated by my desire to achieve and succeed to my full potential. not for the satisfaction of other people, but solely for me.

The people you surround yourself with is a good indicator of the person you strive to be, or be like. The things that motivatate those people and the goals they set for themselves is a good indicator of what motivates you and the goals you have set for yourself. ive resolved to take advantage of knowing that, and take action by surrounding myself with positive uplifting people. i love people but not everyone is heading in the direction i want to go. the goals they set for themselves are not as clear or sound as mine. so yea. while i can maintain relationships with countless people, id rather not spend countless hours with someone whos mentality might just rub me in a way i dont have any desire to go. yeaa. you finish it up.

Routine keeps me focused and motivated. Thats why i must work as often as i do. its not as much that im desperate for money (i need it tho) as much as its keeping myself in a steady routine.

Im reading alot. a shitload. more than ive ever read in my life. more than i ever thought i could read. im currently reading 3 books and listening to another book on CD. I have an overwhelming urge to learn like never before. Im convinced that its based on the premise that i have a desire to be the best mike i can be to myself and to others. In the past two months ive rid myself of countless bad habits that littered my life for years. as a result my quality of life has improved ten fold.

Being healthy has a huge affect on your wellness and how you feel. I realized that i can never expect to think of great things or positive things if i dont physically feel great and nourished. Ive been eating very sound, well balanced meals the past few months and from the start there was an immediate and direct improvement on my mood. I continued to expand on my healthy approach to life to make sure im physically active. When i sit at home and do nothing, i notice im not motivated or excited and i have no real reason to be so. But when i get outside… run, lift, surf, skate, or even take trips and adventures to places ive been meaning to go or see, i find that im more motivated and excited about life. this synergistic effect on me is something i genuinely look forward to everyday. anyway.

so yea. i dont know if i need to go on. thats enough of me for now.

Currently listening:
Back to Bedlam
By James Blunt
Release date: 04 October, 2005
11:36 AM

Compilation of posts: Sept 21- Oct 5

Wednesday, October 05, 2005 

yea. my birthday was yesterday (the 4th) and i dont feel any older. thats alright tho. i spent the last week in NJ. that was refreshing. nice crisp air up there. lots of trees. ha. saw alot of friends that i hadnt seen in almost a year. saw alot of friends that went away for college. had a good time. partied a good part of the time. im glad im home. i got a tattoo. it was an interesting night. This weekend a bunch of us were all shitty and we rolled up into "A1 tattoos" sounds credible right? we woke up the next morning with lips pierced and tattoos. ha. nothing else really exciting.. hm… got a chance to see some really good illegal street racing in philidelphia. that was pretty exciting i suppose. yup. thats about it.

ohh.. and on the way to the airport this morning i accidently deleted allll the pictures of my trip from my digital camera. how FRIGGEN BAD DOES THAT SUCK. i feel sick.

 
Wednesday, September 28, 2005 

We’re singing I believe that lovers should be chained together
And thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
And left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance

But as for me I’m coming to my final failure
I’ve killed myself with changes trying to make things better
But I ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be

Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And layed entwined together on a bed of clover
And left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness

Currently listening:
Every Day and Every Night
By Bright Eyes
Release date: 01 November, 1999
 
Monday, September 26, 2005 

you  can’t out run life. and you can out run its sick cruelity. Ive realized this long ago and its not something that i can every get over. whenever you are holding yourself up you’ve got a thousand other things pulling you down. lifes not fair. you cant outrun the devastation. pray hard.

 
Thursday, September 22, 2005 

A poll:

 

Who likes this music?

 

 
Wednesday, September 21, 2005 

Heres what ive been up to:

So yea… ive been doing alot of working. making some change. its ok tho. I feel productive when i work And im not spending money. so its definately not bad.

Ive been in the gym alot. Im eating more than anyone i know at the moment. um… eager to start serious training. I’ve recently been eating only organic foods. no icky hormones or Antibiotics to poison me. yay. i’d like to say that i feel very healthy. its pretty amazing. I stopped all that partying junk i was doing all summer. i dont know what i was thinking.

oOo incase you didnt already know Elliot Smith is friggen amazing. Also…if your a fan of him… and you havent already… dabble with some Bob Dylan. CLASSIC. god hes good.

Not like i have time for one of those… what do you call them? girlfriends? but sometimes it just gets lonely being by yourself. looking forward to that girl that catches my eye and my heart 😉

Compilation of posts: Aug 6-Sept 15

Thursday, September 15, 2005 

Opinions are a personal thing. Especially critical opinions. The only time you need to voice your opinion is if you are asked to do so. Otherwise you’re just an ass.

I can break it down more if you want. but i think its pretty clear. 

Currently listening:
Andiamo
By Authority Zero
Release date: 29 June, 2004
 
Thursday, September 08, 2005 

Lifes been so good. I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. im not in debt anymore. I have plans. woooo.

ive been hanging out with so many different and new people. there is RARELY a dull moment in my life. and if there is- i made it like that- so i can appreciate how good its been. surfing surfing surfing. this week has been anticipated all summer. gooooood wavess…. so niceee….

this weekend should prove to be a very entertaining one. my gooooood friend has no parental supervision for the weeken 😉 use your imagination and you’ll see where im going with that one.

the only thing im missing are my girls. my girls. where are you?

 
Friday, September 02, 2005 

My eyes can’t believe what they have seen.
In the corner of your room you’ve stockpiled millions of my memories.
Oh Doctor, Doctor, I must have gotten this sick somehow.
I’m going to ask you a series of questions,
And I want them answered on the spot, right now.
Is it serious?
I’m afraid it is.
Am I gonna die?
Well son, death is gonna catch up to all one day,
But yours is coming quicker then ours, then ours.

Some things I may have taken for granted again and again,
well here’s what was said then

Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big, planning something big, planning.

I’ve never tried to make the best of my time,
When I thought that I had plenty of it.
Is this serious?
I don’t know what to think.
Is it all a lie?
Well one thing is for sure
I’m taken back to the glory days
When we were kids without a brash or bitter thing to say.

Now my life is one big make it, or break it.

Hold your head high heavy heart
Save your strength for the morning after.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big, planning something big
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big, planning something big, planning.

 
Monday, August 29, 2005 

I havent been logging in my thoughts and current events as often as i should. i do tooooo much, too often… but i should start.

SAT- yea… great day. GREAT day. i saw my favorite girls, while swimming and getting drunk, and driving around in my jeep like a mad man. it was grrreattt… but no one wants to hear about that.

 

SUNDAY-

me and my favorite hangout partners bought a few cases of beer and went to kedos bridge. (currently my ongoing favorite sunday pastime) i got… pretty drunk. went swimming. met a bunch of random people. really cool. bunch of people met up with us. so it was great. me and a few dudes and girls went to the mall after i was… feeling really good. so we make our way indoors. i get a phone call. my friend is outside… he almost gets jumped outside the mall. he isnt one to start shit, EVER.. and he was drunk… and it was 5 on him… so naturally… im drunk and i want to find these "thugs" and "talk it out"… so we jump in my jeep… i offroad through some back lawns near the mall and eventually roll up to these kids. before i say anything they taunt me. bad move. i park my jeep on the sidewalk. jump on the hood and proceed to negotiate with the 5 "tough guys". when that didnt work i beat the shit out of everyone. my good friend rolled up 5 sec later and helped me out.  so it was real good. tough guys. all 5. talkin shit. real tough, get thier asses beat by me. it was great. until they got scared and broke pots and shit. which is when the cops came, all 5,  and i was on the ground and hand cuffed and it was real shit. BUT- they let me go and my friend got off. 5 on 2. it was realllllly good. i was drunk so what.

so we celebrated by smoking some reefer and going offroading for the rest of the night- with a brief pizza break at BONZOS. yummy.

 
Thursday, August 25, 2005 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-*sigh*-AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

someone.

 

😦

 
Monday, August 22, 2005 

i drink milk alot. its so good. i have it at everymeal. with every cookie, with every dessert. its so smooth and creamy. oOo. milllkkk *drool*

 
Sunday, August 21, 2005 

for her:

I was just bony hands as cold as a winter pole
You held a warm stone out new flowing blood to hold
Oh what a contrast you were
To the brutes in the halls
My timid young fingers held a decent animal.

Over the ramparts you tossed
The scent of your skin and some foreign flowers
Tied to a brick
Sweet as a song
The years have been short but the days were long.

Cool of a temperate breeze from dark skies to wet grass
We fell in a field it seems now a thousand summers passed
When our kite lines first crossed
We tied them into knots
And to finally fly apart
We had to cut them off.

Since then it’s been a book you read in reverse
So you understand less as the pages turn
Or a movie so crass
And awkardly cast
That even I could be the star.

I don’t look back as much as a rule
And all this way before murder was cool
But your memory is here and I’d like it to stay
Warm light on a winter day.

Over the ramparts you tossed
The scent of your skin and some foreign flowers
Tied to a brick
Sweet as a song
The years have been short but the days go slowly by
Two loose kites falling from the sky
Drawn to the ground and an end to flight.

 
Wednesday, August 17, 2005 

so yea. Ive been chillin. no school. yea. no school. no college? yea. fuck that. I dont have the money right now- NOR do i have any clue as to what i want to do with my life. Im not gonna go to college just to "party it up" cause really ive already done shitloads of that. Why didnt i jump on the bandwagon and go to college like every other teen. well honestly-and if you were one of those people that jumped from highschool to college, thats great. godspeed and many blessings.- but im really not like any other teen. Oh wait. You didnt wanna go cuase you werent smart enough. Thats it. ok. I can do whatever the hell i wanna do. I can get whatever grades i wanna get. I can excel when i want to or i can not give a shit and just not care. Does this mean im not capable. um.. fuck that. I never wanted a generic lifestyle. I never want an ordinary life. I want to squeeze every bit of experience i can get out of it while im alive. I just moved to florida. i want to chill the hell out. I am smart. i do know what is going on in my life and the world. moreso than alot of people. So im chillin in my free time. guitar and reading . Im also working full time like slave and im glad like . Im saving money. I really wanna chill and get my priorities straight. And you know what? its working. I can go to school whenever i want. am i justifying the situation im in? fuck yea.

I want to travel. My goal is to save enough-  and go to europe for…awhile. maybe go to school there. I dont know. I really dont know. I plan on interning at a realtors office, while getting my realtors license. make more money. but the possibilities are endless.

 
 
Wednesday, August 10, 2005 

Summer is ending. quickly.

thats if you look at it from a seasonal standpoint. so dont. Think of it as a life thing. Make summer your life. "Summer, n. 2: A period of fruition, fulfillment, happiness, or beauty. "  😉

 

man. 8 months and $500 later- MY JEEP GETS FIXED. but ill wait another 2 weeks before i see it. hmph. 

music’s been my ongoing inspiration. you should listen to it. its good stuff. Ive arrived at a odd place in my life. im staring at a fork in the road. but i notice several other paths. im checking them out one by one. I hope i find what im looking for cause im not gonna give up looking.

I find that people are so damn judgmental. It hurts to see people being judged- it hurts to be judged. everyone knows this. and everyone seems to do it. im not an exception, i just recognize it. the way you are is constantly being critcized and critiqued. from the shoes you proudly wear , to your favorite vintage belt, to your sandwashed jeans that comfortably developed holes in all the right places. the conversations we carry on, the way we carry them. Your unique vocab may not be up to par with someones standards. Notes are being jotted down on your hygiene- The folds in your shirt are being examined and…….. blah blah. no ones safe. even from the people you love.  God says he doesnt judge anyone until they die. why should i?

 

 
Friday, August 05, 2005 

Im sitting next to dead air while there is a garden of life outside my window. With this wooden chair sapping the life out of my body, i ask myself how much longer ill live. Ill walk and rub my face into the the wind. Skipping the cracks that divide my steps and grabbing onto passing trees. Humming myself a melody and look toward the setting sun- green lawnchairs are great for resting i mumbled. i found that lying in wet grass is more comforting than most feeble arms.

Critical opinions

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Critical Opinions
Opinions are a personal thing. Especially critical opinions. The only time you need to voice your opinion is if you are asked to do so. Otherwise you’re just an ass.

I can break it down more if you want. but i think its pretty clear.

Currently listening:
Andiamo
By Authority Zero
Release date: 29 June, 2004
3:34 PM

Life is good

Thursday, September 08, 2005

woooo
Lifes been so good. I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. im not in debt anymore. I have plans. woooo.
ive been hanging out with so many different and new people. there is RARELY a dull moment in my life. and if there is- i made it like that- so i can appreciate how good its been. surfing surfing surfing. this week has been anticipated all summer. gooooood wavess…. so niceee….

this weekend should prove to be a very entertaining one. my gooooood friend has no parental supervision for the weeken use your imagination and you’ll see where im going with that one.

the only thing im missing are my girls. my girls. where are you?

5:30 PM

Girls, inebriation, mall, off-roading, fight .,

girls, inebriation, mall, off-roading, fight .,

I havent been logging in my thoughts and current events as often as i should. i do tooooo much, too often… but i should start.

SAT- yea… great day. GREAT day. i saw my favorite girls, while swimming and getting drunk, and driving around in my jeep like a mad man. it was grrreattt… but no one wants to hear about that.

SUNDAY-

me and my favorite hangout partners bought a few cases of beer and went to kedos bridge. (currently my ongoing favorite sunday pastime) i got… pretty drunk. went swimming. met a bunch of random people. really cool. bunch of people met up with us. so it was great. me and a few dudes and girls went to the mall after i was… feeling really good. so we make our way indoors. i get a phone call. my friend is outside… he almost gets jumped outside the mall. he isnt one to start shit, EVER.. and he was drunk… and it was 5 on him… so naturally… im drunk and i want to find these “thugs” and “talk it out”… so we jump in my jeep… i offroad through some back lawns near the mall and eventually roll up to these kids. before i say anything they taunt me. bad move. i park my jeep on the sidewalk. jump on the hood and proceed to negotiate with the 5 “tough guys”. when that didnt work i beat the shit out of everyone. my good friend rolled up 5 sec later and helped me out. so it was real good. tough guys. all 5. talkin shit. real tough, get thier asses beat by me. it was great. until they got scared and broke pots and shit. which is when the cops came, all 5, and i was on the ground and hand cuffed and it was real shit. BUT- they let me go and my friend got off. 5 on 2. it was realllllly good. i was drunk so what.

so we celebrated by smoking some reefer and going offroading for the rest of the night- with a brief pizza break at BONZOS. yummy.

8:03 AM

girls, inebriation, mall, off-roading, fight .,

Monday, August 29, 2005

girls, inebriation, mall, off-roading, fight .,
I havent been logging in my thoughts and current events as often as i should. i do tooooo much, too often… but i should start.

SAT- yea… great day. GREAT day. i saw my favorite girls, while swimming and getting drunk, and driving around in my jeep like a mad man. it was grrreattt… but no one wants to hear about that.

SUNDAY-

me and my favorite hangout partners bought a few cases of beer and went to kedos bridge. (currently my ongoing favorite sunday pastime) i got… pretty drunk. went swimming. met a bunch of random people. really cool. bunch of people met up with us. so it was great. me and a few dudes and girls went to the mall after i was… feeling really good. so we make our way indoors. i get a phone call. my friend is outside… he almost gets jumped outside the mall. he isnt one to start shit, EVER.. and he was drunk… and it was 5 on him… so naturally… im drunk and i want to find these “thugs” and “talk it out”… so we jump in my jeep… i offroad through some back lawns near the mall and eventually roll up to these kids. before i say anything they taunt me. bad move. i park my jeep on the sidewalk. jump on the hood and proceed to negotiate with the 5 “tough guys”. when that didnt work i beat the shit out of everyone. my good friend rolled up 5 sec later and helped me out. so it was real good. tough guys. all 5. talkin shit. real tough, get thier asses beat by me. it was great. until they got scared and broke pots and shit. which is when the cops came, all 5, and i was on the ground and hand cuffed and it was real shit. BUT- they let me go and my friend got off. 5 on 2. it was realllllly good. i was drunk so what.

so we celebrated by smoking some reefer and going offroading for the rest of the night- with a brief pizza break at BONZOS. yummy.

8:03 AM

oh yea…. ohh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

oh yea…. ohh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
so yea. Ive been chillin. no school. yea. no school. no college? yea. fuck that. I dont have the money right now- NOR do i have any clue as to what i want to do with my life. Im not gonna go to college just to “party it up” cause really ive already done shitloads of that. Why didnt i jump on the bandwagon and go to college like every other teen. well honestly-and if you were one of those people that jumped from highschool to college, thats great. godspeed and many blessings.- but im really not like any other teen. Oh wait. You didnt wanna go cuase you werent smart enough. Thats it. ok. I can do whatever the hell i wanna do. I can get whatever grades i wanna get. I can excel when i want to or i can not give a shit and just not care. Does this mean im not capable. um.. fuck that. I never wanted a generic lifestyle. I never want an ordinary life. I want to squeeze every bit of experience i can get out of it while im alive. I just moved to florida. i want to chill the hell out. I am smart. i do know what is going on in my life and the world. moreso than alot of people. So im chillin in my free time. guitar and reading . Im also working full time like slave and im glad like . Im saving money. I really wanna chill and get my priorities straight. And you know what? its working. I can go to school whenever i want. am i justifying the situation im in? fuck yea.

I want to travel. My goal is to save enough- and go to europe for…awhile. maybe go to school there. I dont know. I really dont know. I plan on interning at a realtors office, while getting my realtors license. make more money. but the possibilities are endless.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005, 2:52 PM

oh yea…. ohh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

oh yea…. ohh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

so yea. Ive been chillin. no school. yea. no school. no college? yea. fuck that. I dont have the money right now- NOR do i have any clue as to what i want to do with my life. Im not gonna go to college just to “party it up” cause really ive already done shitloads of that. Why didnt i jump on the bandwagon and go to college like every other teen. well honestly-and if you were one of those people that jumped from highschool to college, thats great. godspeed and many blessings.- but im really not like any other teen. Oh wait. You didnt wanna go cuase you werent smart enough. Thats it. ok. I can do whatever the hell i wanna do. I can get whatever grades i wanna get. I can excel when i want to or i can not give a shit and just not care. Does this mean im not capable. um.. fuck that. I never wanted a generic lifestyle. I never want an ordinary life. I want to squeeze every bit of experience i can get out of it while im alive. I just moved to florida. i want to chill the hell out. I am smart. i do know what is going on in my life and the world. moreso than alot of people. So im chillin in my free time. guitar and reading . Im also working full time like slave and im glad like . Im saving money. I really wanna chill and get my priorities straight. And you know what? its working. I can go to school whenever i want. am i justifying the situation im in? fuck yea.

I want to travel. My goal is to save enough- and go to europe for…awhile. maybe go to school there. I dont know. I really dont know. I plan on interning at a realtors office, while getting my realtors license. make more money. but the possibilities are endless.

2:52 PM

hmm hmm good

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

hmm hmm good
Summer is ending. quickly.

thats if you look at it from a seasonal standpoint. so dont. Think of it as a life thing. Make summer your life. “Summer, n. 2: A period of fruition, fulfillment, happiness, or beauty. ”

man. 8 months and $500 later- MY JEEP GETS FIXED. but ill wait another 2 weeks before i see it. hmph.

music’s been my ongoing inspiration. you should listen to it. its good stuff. Ive arrived at a odd place in my life. im staring at a fork in the road. but i notice several other paths. im checking them out one by one. I hope i find what im looking for cause im not gonna give up looking.

I find that people are so damn judgmental. It hurts to see people being judged- it hurts to be judged. everyone knows this. and everyone seems to do it. im not an exception, i just recognize it. the way you are is constantly being critcized and critiqued. from the shoes you proudly wear , to your favorite vintage belt, to your sandwashed jeans that comfortably developed holes in all the right places. the conversations we carry on, the way we carry them. Your unique vocab may not be up to par with someones standards. Notes are being jotted down on your hygiene- The folds in your shirt are being examined and…….. blah blah. no ones safe. even from the people you love. God says he doesnt judge anyone until they die. why should i?

6:20 PM

hmm hmm good

Summer is ending. quickly.

That’s if you look at it from a seasonal standpoint. So don’t. Think of it as a life thing. Make summer your life. “Summer, n. 2: A period of fruition, fulfillment, happiness, or beauty. ”

man. 8 months and $500 later- MY JEEP GETS FIXED. but ill wait another 2 weeks before i see it. hmph.

music’s been my ongoing inspiration. you should listen to it. its good stuff. Ive arrived at a odd place in my life. I’m staring at a fork in the road. but i notice several other paths. I’m checking them out one by one. I hope I find what I’m looking for cause I’m not gonna give up looking.

I find that people are so damn judgmental. It hurts to see people being judged- it hurts to be judged. everyone knows this. and everyone seems to do it. im not an exception, i just recognize it. the way you are is constantly being critcized and critiqued. from the shoes you proudly wear , to your favorite vintage belt, to your sandwashed jeans that comfortably developed holes in all the right places. the conversations we carry on, the way we carry them. Your unique vocab may not be up to par with someones standards. Notes are being jotted down on your hygiene- The folds in your shirt are being examined and…….. blah blah. no ones safe. even from the people you love. God says he doesn’t judge anyone until they die. why should i?

6:20 PM

Lying

lying

Im sitting next to dead air while there is a garden of life outside my window. With this wooden chair sapping the life out of my body, i ask myself how much longer ill live. Ill walk and rub my face into the the wind. Skipping the cracks that divide my steps and grabbing onto passing trees. Humming myself a melody and look toward the setting sun- green lawnchairs are great for resting i mumbled. i found that lying in wet grass is more comforting than most feeble arms.

10:35 AM

lying

Friday, August 05, 2005

lying
Im sitting next to dead air while there is a garden of life outside my window. With this wooden chair sapping the life out of my body, i ask myself how much longer ill live. Ill walk and rub my face into the the wind. Skipping the cracks that divide my steps and grabbing onto passing trees. Humming myself a melody and look toward the setting sun- green lawnchairs are great for resting i mumbled. i found that lying in wet grass is more comforting than most feeble arms.

SummeR – WooT

SummeR – WooT
Current mood: happy
Update:

SO ive been managing my time nicely. I have been allll around this summer- and i still set time aside for myself. yesterday i went to the kava bar- saw so many fine lookin ladies that i havent seen in forever. I havent been to the beach in a few days, and i find that very perturbing. i need to do that asap. hm… started workin- its been aight. Bar backing at Spotos Oakwood Grill on PGA- so save up and come visit. I had two friends from NJ come down. It was pretty sweet- even tho we did absolutely nothing. They were happy to be here so it didnt matter. So goshhhhhhhhhh what else…. um.. man. Guitar. playing alot alot. and ive been reading. i like it. The shins are so damn good. LISTEN TO THE SHINS- ALL OF YOU. ha

Currently listening:
Chutes Too Narrow
By The Shins
Release date: 21 October, 2003
12:06 PM

SummeR – WooT

SummeR – WooT
Current mood: happy
Update:

SO ive been managing my time nicely. I have been allll around this summer- and i still set time aside for myself. yesterday i went to the kava bar- saw so many fine lookin ladies that i havent seen in forever. I havent been to the beach in a few days, and i find that very perturbing. i need to do that asap. hm… started workin- its been aight. Bar backing at Spotos Oakwood Grill on PGA- so save up and come visit. I had two friends from NJ come down. It was pretty sweet- even tho we did absolutely nothing. They were happy to be here so it didnt matter. So goshhhhhhhhhh what else…. um.. man. Guitar. playing alot alot. and ive been reading. i like it. The shins are so damn good. LISTEN TO THE SHINS- ALL OF YOU. ha

Currently listening:
Chutes Too Narrow
By The Shins
Release date: 21 October, 2003
12:06 PM

Compilation of posts: June 27-July 28

Thursday, July 28, 2005 


Current mood:  happy

Update:

SO ive been managing my time nicely. I have been allll around this summer- and i still set time aside for myself. yesterday i went to the kava bar- saw so many fine lookin ladies that i havent seen in forever. I havent been to the beach in a few days, and i find that very perturbing. i need to do that asap. hm… started workin- its been aight. Bar backing at Spotos Oakwood Grill on PGA- so save up and come visit. I had two friends from NJ come down. It was pretty sweet- even tho we did absolutely nothing. They were happy to be here so it didnt matter. So goshhhhhhhhhh what else…. um.. man. Guitar.  playing alot alot. and ive been reading. i like it. The shins are so damn good. LISTEN TO THE SHINS- ALL OF YOU. ha 😉

Currently listening:
Chutes Too Narrow
By The Shins
Release date: 21 October, 2003
 
Saturday, July 23, 2005 

sometimes you need to run away. or be rescued. im looking to be rescued. help.

 
Monday, July 18, 2005 

I see our stars tonight
Do you recall that light
Or do you ever think of me
And in your world somewhere
Do memories rip and tear
The ones that always keep you hanging on
To all that might have been

 

 

 
Sunday, July 17, 2005 

Last night was pretty much amazing. Went to la fonda and Salsa danced into the night for sebastians b-day. Pregame was at sebs poolhouse where salsa lessons were given and massive amounts of alcohol was consumed in a very short period of time. we piled into a big’ol van and partied till we got there. i had so much fun. there was minor drama that occurred which sucks but its all good.  Everyone was REALLY drunk. I was laughing the whole night. i woke up in the middle of the floor in some random house with no furniture. I realized that i was laying next to about 6 other people who were unconscious and scattered about the room, all chillin with no blankets. Just the lovely feel of carpet. that made me laugh. I remember eating weird food at the this latino club and drinking weird beverages. it was cooooool—

THEN- made my way to sebs house, passed out till 130- woke and went to sebs poolhouse for a huge barbacue with like 40 people. volleyball, drunkpeople, swimming, MLS on TV goin on, dancing, fun fun funnnnnn. now im tired and im gonna take a shower, clean up and pass out.

 
Saturday, July 16, 2005 

everyone over reacts. no one sees the big picture.

I propose that everyone lets go of mindless thoughts that hold you back from living life to its fullest. Seeing people recognize that everyone is not perfect, and that everyone is just as capable as the person next to them- capable of good and bad.

 
Sunday, July 10, 2005 

i find people funny. i will tell you this. i find it funny that people complain about people complaining. it makes me laugh. what are you saying? that your complaints are more valid than thiers.  really its funny. i find it humorous that people take the time to complain about those people. about the people they dont like. I just recently noticed a trend beginnning. its: Complain and complain some more about the people you dont like and who comaplain, and put it in your profile. i get a laugh. people are funny.

 
Friday, July 08, 2005 


Current mood:  happy

so i get a job. woot. its actually a real job. no honky dorey stuff. a desk job… for whom? why none other than Maverick skate shop. so i sit at a desk all day and order clothes and pick out clothes and talk to vendors and reps and all that jazz. its pretty cool feeling professional. its even cooler when i sit at a desk. whoa.

money = REALLY GOOOD

Currently listening:
In Love and Death
By The Used
Release date: 28 September, 2004
 
Wednesday, July 06, 2005 

i love partying. esp sober.and i love girls 😉

 

 

the beach is my home- go there or be a hermit-pah

 
Friday, July 01, 2005 


Current mood:  happy

i want everyone to know— that i love everyone. im sober now and i am having the happiest days of my life. going to parties sober is a whole different experience. i dont need to drink or pop pills or smoke or do all that other trash in order to forget my insecurities in order to have a good time. never thought id ever ever say that. and i dont think anyone would ever ever imagine me saying that. no longer am i a slave to myself. everyday is good. and when it gets bad, i still have the option to make the best of it. no longer is fun a partying experience- everyminute of my life is fun. i love my friends and the people that support me. i always have good times partying with my bottled water. ha. im even more thankful for those who never gave up on me through my trials. i am so gratetful.

singing in the car- to anything. wrestling in beds. yelling and jumping. meeting random people in random places and having fun all the while. soaking up the sun- basking in sweat- swimming to the sand bars-going surfing even if its just wind chop to paddle around- shell fights. ha. getting buried in the sand. rekindling old friendships.silly. kisses and hugs. movies. late night anything. staying in shape. woooot. the list goes on. and i remember every minute of it.  

Currently listening:
Sublime
By Sublime
Release date: 30 July, 1996
 
Monday, June 27, 2005 

Im bored… and its raining.

soo…ill fill you in on what my summer routines been lookin like. wake up round  8. run around jupiter till i cant breath or feel my legs. lift. eat breakfast. shower. read for an hour. hop online. check the weather. check the surf report. make phone calls. get out of the house by 12. go out all day. eat in between. run again.  go out all night. stay sober. go to bed by an early hour. structure is hot.

Salsa

Salsa

Last night was pretty much amazing. Went to la fonda and Salsa danced into the night for sebastians b-day. Pregame was at sebs poolhouse where salsa lessons were given and massive amounts of alcohol was consumed in a very short period of time. we piled into a big’ol van and partied till we got there. i had so much fun. there was minor drama that occurred which sucks but its all good. Everyone was REALLY drunk. I was laughing the whole night. i woke up in the middle of the floor in some random house with no furniture. I realized that i was laying next to about 6 other people who were unconscious and scattered about the room, all chillin with no blankets. Just the lovely feel of carpet. that made me laugh. I remember eating weird food at the this latino club and drinking weird beverages. it was cooooool—

THEN- made my way to sebs house, passed out till 130- woke and went to sebs poolhouse for a huge barbacue with like 40 people. volleyball, drunkpeople, swimming, MLS on TV goin on, dancing, fun fun funnnnnn. now im tired and im gonna take a shower, clean up and pass out.

4:35 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Saturday, June 25, 2005

I BET YOURE JEALOUS NOW
i got a new kitty. i bet youre jealous now. his names Hart – and hes a gangsta.

so today i had meetings all day. Important people, job interviews, small groups, etc., Got a new job and have another pending (PRAY I GET IT-MUCHO DALLORES) i surfed all day- nice and fun waves. got some sun.. hm… went to small groups tonight… went out hung out with alot of people i hadnt seen in the longest time. fun fun fun. ooo and i got my kitty.

7:04 AM

Compilation of posts: May 28- June 25

Saturday, June 25, 2005 

surfed all day in fort pierce. 1-4 ft waves…. fun tho. got a lil sunburn.

 
Saturday, June 25, 2005 

i got a new kitty. i bet youre jealous now. his names Hart  – and hes a gangsta.

 

so today i had meetings all day. Important people, job interviews, small groups, etc., Got a new job and have another pending (PRAY I GET IT-MUCHO DALLORES) i surfed all day- nice and fun waves. got some sun.. hm… went to small groups tonight… went out hung out with alot of people i hadnt seen in the longest time. fun fun fun. ooo and i got my kitty.

 
Friday, June 24, 2005 

Interesting test… tell me if you think the results are accurate about me. ha.
 

Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 66%
Stability |||||||||||||| 56%
Orderliness |||||||||| 36%
Altruism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Hedonism |||| 16%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||| 16%
Need to dominate |||||||||| 36%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 43%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||| 23%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||| 36%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||||| 43%
Physical fitness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Female cliche |||||||||| 36%
trait snapshot:
messy, outgoing, open, self revealing, ambivalent about chaos, unpredictable, not good at saving money, social, likes large parties, likes to stand out, risk taker, quick to make friends, does not like to be alone, rash, fame seeking, sarcastic, craves attention, social chameleon, low self control, food lover, not rule conscious, weird, assertive, not a perfectionist, anti-authority, thrill seeker, vain, likes to fit in, reckless, emotionally sensitive, leisurely, trusting
 
Big Five Test Results

Extroversion ||||||||||||||||

64%

Orderliness |||||||||||| 44%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||| 58%
Altruism |||||||||||||||| 66%
Inquisitiveness |||||||||||||||||||| 86%

 
Wednesday, June 22, 2005 

Lets destroy each other because we’re too cool for love lines and soft kisses over cheap wine. Smoke me baby like your last cigarette and whisper to me- say you’ll never forget. Could you break my heart a little more? Shove my body against yours and kiss me like you mean it 😉

 

Yea i got another lil tat-post pictures later.

 
Sunday, June 19, 2005 

 "i am forever working on finding you a reason to breath on" she said with a smile. my heart lightened and the grass grew all around us. she will be mine. no longer will i wrestle with the dregs of guilt or conviction. if its watering you want youve come to the right heart. i will spill mine as  long as my heart beats for you. ive wispered this dream to myself before- id like to wisper it to you.

 i disappeared. i will disappear. i got involved with the wrong people. involved with the wrong places. involved with the wrong things. i am ok. im not dead. i will be better.

 
Wednesday, June 15, 2005 

fuck you all.

 
Sunday, June 12, 2005 

so yea. i got kicked out of my house. petty bullshit i think.. no cell, no home phone. if you wanna reach me leave me a message and eventually i might recieve it. 

 
Saturday, June 04, 2005 

Never thought i’d say this but: i think im bored with drugs and alcohol. wow.SXE for me HA

 
Tuesday, May 31, 2005 

500pm Monday after noon.  gettin high at the figure 8. with jesse and jarod. Dino calls me. hes with Devin and Eric. We meet up. Jarod and jesse go home. i go with Dino. We chill. Took some shots of GM and wiskey. went to the beach. skim boarded. came home. decided that we should get drunk. no beer.

Dino has a stroke of genius. He dresses up in hobo clothes, a big jean jacket, a winter hat  a 2 foot scraggly beard and aviator glasses. he incorporates a haggard drunk strung out voice to accomadate the attire. We go to sunoco, he goes in and comes back out. With 2 12 packs of BL!. wooooot.

we go back to dinos, pound 6 beers each. listen to dino jam on the guitar. we rate the songs that are goin on his new CD. awesome shit. smoke cigarettes. I officially got branded last night. the infamous heart on the right hand. it means= I am committed to going to colorado with dino the crew as soon as possible. (when i get out of the marines.) we decide to go on a drunken adventure. we walk to the BEACH. we’re singing loudly, dancing in the road, hootin and hollaring. laughing. get to the beach. watch the lightning storm thats far out at sea. sit on the beach and chill. We notice a LARGE mass moving on the shore. we’re like is that a turtle. we run up. ITS A 300lb SEA TURTLE. WE SHIT. so crazy. we’re all touchin it and tryin to pick it up. unfortunately it overpowered up and pulled us into the ocean before we let go.so we walk , totally stoked that we just saw a friggen SEA TURTLE. we’re hungry. THIRSTY TURTLE WINGS. its like 1130. they’re kitchen is closed. they tell us to go to Kirbys. we venture to kirbys. JUST IN TIME to witness ladies getting naked for money. ofcourse us young bucks get excited and started throwin money around. A 30 year old GUIDANCE counselor from Ohio is on the bar stool givin us a peep show for our dollar bills. WHAT THE F. how crazy is that. we’re all drunk and order wings while all this mayhem at the bar is goin on. naked women crazy stuff. eat our wings. arm wrestling goin on.  some 35 yearold dude is arm wrestling my friends while we sit outside and shoot the shit. hes like arm wrestle me. im like ok. i beat this guy. i dont think ive seen a guy so humiliated. an 18 year old drunk kid beat this 35 year old. i found it funny. 6 tries later i still beat him. funniest shit ever. ppl are drunk and rowdy. guys are doin back flips and walkin around on thier hands. wow. drunk ladies (with their husbands) are tellin us about the amazing head they give. my friends are all about this. haha. hittin on these older women like theyre gonna get some. it was funny. we go back to dinos, drink some more. smoke a bowl. chill out. listen to music. and…. pass out. wake up. its morning. have a grit and coffee.  its pouring out. Lets go to the beach. we get up, put on some dirty shorts and go to the beach. skim board and shit. its all shitty out and we look like lunatics runnin around the streets half naked. go back to his house shower off and go home. what a night.

 

That was my monday night.

 
Saturday, May 28, 2005 

i worked till 1130. dropped some E (yay). went to a beach party. fighting everywhere. people everywhere. dont know whats goin on. no more alcohol. kegs dry. whatev.ppl r everywhere.  po po roll up. outta nowhere. i realize the situation at hand. i shit and run my ass off to the car. i dive head first in some bushes so that i might be able to elude the blue monsters. run on the beach for a good, eh, fuckin mile.. (felt like it) find the car. get in. go to taco bell to chill out and figure out what the fuck happened. watch police and abulences spontaneously spawn from every corner of jupiter. heard that someone died. (seriously tho) im freakin out. but dont care cause im rollin. i call bunches of ppl up. leave a few dozen messages. pick up a 12 pack. go back to my house where i was gonna have ppl over.  go to my neighbors house. party. brooke calls me back. told her i wanted to see her. she said stop by in this newhaven party. go there. rollin balls. drank 10 beers. really drunk. dont remember fine details. i liked everyone at the house i was at. i go home round 3. chill at my neighbors. talk to gay guys about life. very enlightening. im rollin till about 6 this morning. i see the sun peak its rays over the horizon. i realize i should probably go to bed. i had work at 10 this morning.

that was my friday night.

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Friday, June 24, 2005

Very Interesting- Comment
Interesting test… tell me if you think the results are accurate about me. ha.

Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 66%
Stability |||||||||||||| 56%
Orderliness |||||||||| 36%
Altruism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Hedonism |||| 16%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||| 16%
Need to dominate |||||||||| 36%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 43%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||| 23%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||| 36%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||||| 43%
Physical fitness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Female cliche |||||||||| 36%
trait snapshot:
messy, outgoing, open, self revealing, ambivalent about chaos, unpredictable, not good at saving money, social, likes large parties, likes to stand out, risk taker, quick to make friends, does not like to be alone, rash, fame seeking, sarcastic, craves attention, social chameleon, low self control, food lover, not rule conscious, weird, assertive, not a perfectionist, anti-authority, thrill seeker, vain, likes to fit in, reckless, emotionally sensitive, leisurely, trusting

Big Five Test Results
Extroversion |||||||||||||||| 64%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 44%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||| 58%
Altruism |||||||||||||||| 66%
Inquisitiveness |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
12:39 AM

I got a new tattoo

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

I got a new tattoo

Lets destroy each other because we’re too cool for love lines and soft kisses over cheap wine. Smoke me baby like your last cigarette and whisper to me- say you’ll never forget. Could you break my heart a little more? Shove my body against yours and kiss me like you mean it 😉

Yea i got another lil tat-post pictures later.

9:17 PM

I got a new tattoo

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

I got a new tattoo
Lets destroy each other because we’re too cool for love lines and soft kisses over cheap wine. Smoke me baby like your last cigarette and whisper to me- say you’ll never forget. Could you break my heart a little more? Shove my body against yours and kiss me like you mean it

Yea i got another lil tat-post pictures later.

9:17 PM

My spotless mind

my spotless mind

“i am forever working on finding you a reason to breath on” she said with a smile. my heart lightened and the grass grew all around us. she will be mine. no longer will i wrestle with the dregs of guilt or conviction. if its watering you want youve come to the right heart. i will spill mine as long as my heart beats for you. ive wispered this dream to myself before- id like to wisper it to you.

i disappeared. i will disappear. i got involved with the wrong people. involved with the wrong places. involved with the wrong things. i am ok. im not dead. i will be better.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

my spotless mind

Sunday, June 19, 2005

my spotless mind
“i am forever working on finding you a reason to breath on” she said with a smile. my heart lightened and the grass grew all around us. she will be mine. no longer will i wrestle with the dregs of guilt or conviction. if its watering you want youve come to the right heart. i will spill mine as long as my heart beats for you. ive wispered this dream to myself before- id like to wisper it to you.
i disappeared. i will disappear. i got involved with the wrong people. involved with the wrong places. involved with the wrong things. i am ok. im not dead. i will be better.

9:46 PM