William

life

Life. i read alot tonight. i read alot of my journals tonight. writtien journals, livejournals, myspacejournals. Who was i two years ago? who am i today? this is all overhwhelming at the moment. very emotional. Do people ever learn? only when they decide to do do they annouce they’ve learned. i feel less creative than ever. I feel that my emotions, those unpredictable and unlogical things that fester in my soul were the source of my enthusiasm and creativitity for so long. Ive all but extinguished those childish tendencies at thispoint. where are the metaphors. meta. meta messages. meta physics. meta mechanics. philosphy. words. expression. ugh.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Confused and lost. Programming myself on a daily basis. I know too much for my own good. I don’t know what I want. I know what I don’t. I struggle daily with vices, addictions, motivating. I’m obsessed with learning, knowledge, acquiring it, putting it to use; and at the same time, totally wasting away because life is short and seemingly unfulfulling. Creativity can be practiced. You’re only as smart as you think you are. Know you are. What is my existence. It’s a cruel catch phrase. I want to catch something that will pull me along. Passions are postal stamps. You label your hobbies as cool. Nothing is filling. Negetivity will bring you nothing, show you nothing. I know nothing in the scheme of things. I think too much. I get headaches, heartaches, and stomache aches. I am conscious all the time. There is little I overlook. I say everything for a reason. But it doesn’t mean i mean it. I look past and beyond whats behind and in front of me, obstacles, you know. I realize my happiness is trivial when compared to yours. I hope your happy. Love exists only in the eyes of a blind man. Fortunately you can gouge your eyes out. I only plead with myself. Im very articulated and poigant. Picky, selective, particular but I’ll lead you to believe I’m not. I’ll please you, but your not special. Few read the credits. Who really cares about anyone but themselves. I can be your biggest fan. I believe in bliss. Lying to youself. Ignorance. I have a hard time dealing with reality. Reality is debatable. I can close my eyes. I escape too often. No ones special without a label. Power corrupts. Knowledge corrodes. Wisdom prevails. and all this means absolutely nothing.

emo logistics

I realized something a long time ago and every once and a while i touch on it and it gives me a little reminder of who i am. I realized i rationalize my emotions. This may be a good and bad thing. Im sorta indifferent as to whether or not it matters in the long run cuz ultimately, in the end, i decide how happy i am based on my efforts. I always diassociate myself from my feelings and emotions. I form logical bridges and barriers to protect and guide myself through troubled waters. I use understanding and knowledge to build a mausoleum around my hurt. The few times I’ve followed my emotions i must say have led to the worst disappointments in my life. Deaths, broken relationships, and confusion were usually the result. anyway. I dont really think too highly of those things called emotions. Maybe I wont be living life to the fullest but as i see it they only bring you down. you emotions are not your reality. and they dont know whats best for you.

Detox Foods

1. Lots of super-healthy liquids to flush out the body while pouring in nutrients.

2. Fiber to keep your GI tract fit.

3. Foods that energize cleansing enzymes in the liver, your body’s built-in detox center.

The top 10:

Green leafy vegetables. Eat them raw, throw them into a broth, add them to juices. Their chlorophyll helps swab out environmental toxins (heavy metals, pesticides) and is an all-round liver protector.
Lemons. You need to keep the fluids flowing to wash out the body and fresh lemonade is ideal. Its vitamin C – considered the detox vitamin – helps convert toxins into a water – soluble form that?s easily flushed away.
Watercress. Put a handful into salads, soups, and sandwiches. The peppery little green leaves have a diuretic effect that helps move things through your system. And cress is rich in minerals too.
Garlic. Add it to everything – salads, sauces, spreads. In addition to the bulb’s cardio benefits, it activates liver enzymes that help filter out junk.
Green tea. This antioxidant-rich brew is one of the healthiest ways to get more fluids into your system. Bonus: It contains catechins, which speed up liver activity.
Broccoli sprouts. Get ’em at your health-food store. They pack 20 to 50 times more cancer-fighting, enzyme-stimulating activity into each bite than the grown-up vegetable.
Sesame seeds. They’re credited with protecting liver cells from the damaging effects of alcohol and other chemicals. For a concentrated form, try tahini, the yummy sesame seed paste that?s a staple of Asian cooking.
Cabbage. There are two main types of detoxifying enzymes in the liver; this potent veggie helps activate both of them. Coleslaw, anyone?
Psyllium. A plant that?s rich in soluble fiber, like oat bran, but more versatile. It mops up toxins (cholesterol too) and helps clear them out. Stir powdered psyllium into juice to help cleanse your colon, or have psyllium-fortified Bran Buds for breakfast.
Fruits, fruits, fruits. They’re full of almost all the good things above – vitamin C, fiber, nutritious fluids, and all kinds of antioxidants. Besides, nothing tastes better than a ripe mango, fresh berries, or a perfect pear.

Ultimate Detox Recipe

Easy Wilted Garlic-Sesame Salad
Toss dark, leafy greens in hot, garlicky oil for a cleansing?and delicious – dish
4 servings, about 65 calories each
1 Tsp. olive oil
1 clove garlic, minced
1 lb. spinach, stemmed,
or 1 lb. Swiss chard, stems sliced, leaves torn
or 1 lb. mixture of spinach and watercress
Salt and freshly ground pepper to taste
1 Tsp. sesame seeds for garnish
Warm oil in large skillet over medium-high heat. Add garlic and stir until lightly browned, about 45 seconds. Add greens (do in two batches, if necessary) and toss until just wilted, 2 to 4 minutes. Season to taste with salt and pepper. Sprinkle with sesame seeds.

http://food.yahoo.com/blog/beautyeats/30/top-10-detox-foods

Robert Frost. hm.

”Don’t ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up.”

Robert Frost.

My Personal Mission Statement

Succeed at home first

Seek and merit divine Help

Never compromise with honesty

Remember the people involved

Hear both sides before judging

Obtain Counsel from Others

Defend those who are absent

Be sincere yet decisive

Develop one new proficiency a year

Plan Tomorrow’s work today

Hustle while you wait

Maintain a positive Attitude

Keep a sense of humor

Be orderly in person and in work

Do not fear mistakes- Fear only the absence of creative, Constructive and creative responses to those mistakes

Facilitate the success of subordinates

Listen twice as much as you speak

Concentrate all abilities and efforts on the task at hand, not worrying about the next job or promotion

static

gr. I’ve got some frustrations in my head.

In, but not of, the world

I like the people who lead lives based on their specific calling, their duty, to themselves and their convictions. I don’t really find the company of people who lead lives based on other peoples opinions too satisfying. I like those who live outside the world. outside popular culture. Those who have visions of great things for themselves that require them to blaze the way in unprecedented manners so that others may follow after they’ve reached the end of their conquest and voyage.

Feelings and Emotions

Alright. This is my interpretation of those little critters we call feelings and emotions. I honestly think they are simply indicators. They indicate as to whether or not our thoughts are in line with that we really want. They are like a compass for our true desires. If we think and dwell on the things we want… we feel good. If we think and dwell on the things that we don’t want… or even things that aren’t important… we’ll feel blah.. or bad. You get it? This isn’t me just saying this either. There are plenty of reasons supporting this.
knowing this…

We absolutely, positively have the power of free thought. That is undebateably true. We ultimately choose what it is we think about on a daily basis. We however do develop habits of thinking. Sometimes bad habits, which would explain why some people feel so bad all the time. They constantly think about things that they don’t want due to poor habits of thinking, which in turn makes them feel bad, even if they really don’t want it. The law of attraction states that whatever it is you give you’re attention to, you will get more of it. Even if its something you dont want. for example: “I don’t want to be sad.” you just gave your attention to being sad. Not being happy, which is what you really want. Mother Theresa knew this concept. She said she’d never attend an anti-war rally, but if there was a peace really she’d go. funny. anyway…
knowing this…

Give your attention to things you want and not only will you be more aware of these things, you will become the thing you want, and you will draw circumstances together to get you the thing you want.
somehow i got off topic.

basically. Don’t trust your feelings. They LIE. alright… so if a girl is everything you want then i mean, its obvious you’ll have feelings for her. and i mean… explore it. obv. but don’t act accordingly to them. Base your actions on principles and values and whats best for everyone. anyway.

Richest 2% own ‘half the wealth’

People live in a box. They refuse to look past the limited belief system that the world lives by. Or they just don’t know how to look beyond. Read this article . & Read this article. It will open your eyes.

A Twentieth-Century Testimony

When I look back on my life nowadays, which I sometimes do, what strikes me most forcibly about it is that what seemed at the time most significant and seductive, seems now most futile and absurd. For instance, success in all of its various guises; being known and being praised; ostensible pleasures, like acquiring money or seducing women, or traveling, going to and fro in the world and up and down in it like Satan, explaining and experiencing whatever Vanity Fair has to offer.”
“In retrospect, all these exercises in self-gratification seem pure fantasy, what Pascal called, “licking the earth.””

-Malcom Muggeridge

I whole-heartedly agree.

Self-Reliance: To friends and foes

“I shall endeavor to nourish my parents, to support my family, to be the chaste husband of one wife, — but these relations I must fill after a new and unprecedented way. I appeal from your customs. I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for you, or you. If you can love me for what I am, we shall be the happier. If you cannot, I will still seek to deserve that you should. I will not hide my tastes or aversions. I will so trust that what is deep is holy, that I will do strongly before the sun and moon whatever inly rejoices me, and the heart appoints. If you are noble, I will love you; if you are not, I will not hurt you and myself by hypocritical attentions. If you are true, but not in the same truth with me, cleave to your companions; I will seek my own. I do this not selfishly, but humbly and truly. It is alike your interest, and mine, and all men’s, however long we have dwelt in lies, to live in truth. Does this sound harsh to-day? You will soon love what is dictated by your nature as well as mine, and, if we follow the truth, it will bring us out safe at last. — But so you may give these friends pain. Yes, but I cannot sell my liberty and my power, to save their sensibility. Besides, all persons have their moments of reason, when they look out into the region of absolute truth; then will they justify me, and do the same thing.”

“The populace think that your rejection of popular standards is a rejection of all standard, and mere antinomianism; and the bold sensualist will use the name of philosophy to gild his crimes. But the law of consciousness abides. There are two confessionals, in one or the other of which we must be shriven. You may fulfil your round of duties by clearing yourself in the direct, or in the reflex way. Consider whether you have satisfied your relations to father, mother, cousin, neighbour, town, cat, and dog; whether any of these can upbraid you. But I may also neglect this reflex standard, and absolve me to myself. I have my own stern claims and perfect circle. It denies the name of duty to many offices that are called duties. But if I can discharge its debts, it enables me to dispense with the popular code. If any one imagines that this law is lax, let him keep its commandment one day.”

“And truly it demands something godlike in him who has cast off the common motives of humanity, and has ventured to trust himself for a taskmaster. High be his heart, faithful his will, clear his sight, that he may in good earnest be doctrine, society, law, to himself, that a simple purpose may be to him as strong as iron necessity is to others!”

Emerson.
Self-Reliance

Self-Reliance: To friendsand foes

“I shall endeavour to nourish my parents, to support my family, to be the chaste husband of one wife, — but these relations I must fill after a new and unprecedented way. I appeal from your customs. I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for you, or you. If you can love me for what I am, we shall be the happier. If you cannot, I will still seek to deserve that you should. I will not hide my tastes or aversions. I will so trust that what is deep is holy, that I will do strongly before the sun and moon whatever inly rejoices me, and the heart appoints. If you are noble, I will love you; if you are not, I will not hurt you and myself by hypocritical attentions. If you are true, but not in the same truth with me, cleave to your companions; I will seek my own. I do this not selfishly, but humbly and truly. It is alike your interest, and mine, and all men’s, however long we have dwelt in lies, to live in truth. Does this sound harsh to-day? You will soon love what is dictated by your nature as well as mine, and, if we follow the truth, it will bring us out safe at last. — But so you may give these friends pain. Yes, but I cannot sell my liberty and my power, to save their sensibility. Besides, all persons have their moments of reason, when they look out into the region of absolute truth; then will they justify me, and do the same thing.”

Emerson.
Self-Reliance

Love is a verb.

“Love is a verb. Love – the feeling – is the fruit of love the verb or our loving actions. So love her. Sacrifice. Listen to her. Empathize. Appreciate. Affirm her.” (stephen covey) Don’t base your relationship around feelings. Feelings come and go like the wind. Love is a choice. As you develope the relationship and nuture it through loving them, you will be rewarded with the feelings of love.

Basically- I want you to know that you have a choice as to whether or not you’re a slave to you’re emotions. Decide to take control and respond accordingly to values, instead of circumstances.

Epistemology

A theory of knowledge.

Interesting when you look at it like this. The knowledge you’ve collected is a direct result of concrete truths you’ve chosen to incorporate into your life, as matters of factual living, and the combination of a belief system you choose to live by on a daily basis. If you educate yourself by furthering the inalienable truths you’re aware of, and you cordinate your belief system to match the strive for your inner utmost desires, you develope a fuller knowledge of the operation of the reality you, ultimately, choose to live in.

Basically, you absorb knowledge based on the reality you decide to build for yourself, however consciously or unconsciously you choose to see it. This again traces back the the desires inside you. In order to achieve these desires, you align yourself with the thinking it takes to get you there. Decisions, decisions.

the magic of believing

“The person with a fixed goal, a clear picture of his desire, or an ideal always before him, causes it, through repetition, to be buried deeply in his subconscious mind and is thus enabled, thanks to its generative and sustaining power, to realize his goal in a minimum of time and with a minimum of physical effort. Just pursue the thought unceasingly. Step by step you will achieve realization, for all your faculties and powers become directed to that end.”

Claude Bristol

me

don’t ever limit yourself. im gonna set out to achieve everything it is i want in life. and people are going to watch me in amazement and ask me how i did it. im going to write books and influence the masses. im going to succeed on a monumental scale. im going to have everything ive ever wanted. i wont stop succeeding until ive reached far beyond what the common mind can dream of. i will be sought after in high and low places. people will pay great sums of money for my time. they will buy my books and go to my seminars and classes to grasp the paradigms i live by. I will find ultimate happiness and true love. i fall in love with someone whomever i desire to fall in love with. i will be a slave to no one. i will work for no one. my efforts will be motivated by my desire to accomplish all of life’s obstacles because nothing is too great and because i know the greatest reward is acheiving my desires through work and a resolved mind. My riches will be a mere reflection of my success. I will read and retain and repeat and continually put into practice these things i believe in. Action will bring me these things. I will share my knowledge with the world due to the overflow of my understanding. Nothing will limit me or hold me back. No one, no thing. Will ever prevent me from attaining these desires deeply embedded into my soul.

‘What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think.’-Emerson
‘Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.’- Calvin Cooliage

love

i was thinkin. just because its cool to think. when do you know when you met the one? do you know it? or do you decide it for yourself? hm. i like mature girls who are mature with the feelings. who have thier own life going for them and dont expect me to revolve around them, nor should they be expected to revolve around me. i really like girls who are honest with the feelings and dont play games. who know what they want and go for it. i dunno. i dont like liars. i hate liars. and deception. and anything like that. ew. i think i forgot how to love. i need to be taught again. it sucks when youre afraid. you just coast. nothing too exciting happens. i really like this one girl but im afraid to let myself totally give in. i guess it takes time. ofcourse it does. silly me. psh. anyway. go for your goals.

um. i have these tapes and i listen to them morning noon and night… they reprogram your brain. its crazy. haha. its like… this guy talking to you… and telling you repetively in an appealing manner everything that you want to be. there are different subjects and for instance im on the organizational CD. the guys like. “you are organized. you’re organized because you know to be be effective and accomplish goals things need order” .. and so on and so forth.. just an example… but yea. its cool. anyway. love!

My Opinon on Food, Drugs, and Disease in the US

Our country’s all messed up. The number one thing that stands out in my mind thats predomiately wrong with our country as a whole is the lack on knowledge people have in general. What stands out most noticably at first glance, without speaking to anyone, is incredibly poor health is see people in.

Obesity. Disgusting. Dont people know how to take care of themselves? the answer honestly is NO. Is it their fault? honestly yes. We place our trust in the government ( a big mistake incase you havent realized). These bimbo’s are pretending controlling a mass of minds trying to get rich. So much goes unnoticed. Especially when they pass you a buck. It disgusts me at the lack of knowledge people have when it comes to the food they readily consume from mass manufacturers and Process plants. first… check this.

The bogus “FOOD AND DRUG Administration” is a joke. I wanna know where in the hell FOOD and DRUGS should ever be supervised together. The top killers of people in the US are 1Heart Disease, 2Cancer, 3Strokes, 4Lung Disease, 5Unitentional Injuries, 6Diabetes but i dont even need to go on.
Think about it:
1Heart disease? Simply Enough…POOR DIET. I dont even need to get into it.
2Cancer? “Cancer experts estimate that changes to our diet could prevent about one in three cancer deaths in the UK. In the western world, many of us eat too many animal fats and not enough fresh fruit and vegetables. This type of diet is known to increase your risk of cancer.” (Copyright Cancer Research UK 2002) My God! Not to mention Carcinogens from SMOKING and eating things that are charred and overcooked.
3Stroke? Once again… DIET. Things that Cause a stroke: Highblood pressure(Diet, Physical-Inactivity, and Stress), Cigarette smoking, Heart disease, and diabetes. All these things can lead to a stroke if they dont kill you first.
4Lung Disease? SMOKING. Obviously.
5Unintentional Injuries? you know.. the usual stuff… like car accidents, drowning, choking on food cause you’re gluttinous and fat and shove too much down your throat. kidding but not really.
6Diabetes? Obesity(Poor Diet), Physical Inactivity, and even certain medications. that the FDA approves. hm.

Its all a joke really. “Last year 2.8 billion prescriptions were filled in the United States. With America’s population standing at 283,477,367 as of January 18, 2001, that’s an average of 9.9 prescriptions filled for each person living in our nation.”(The magazine of the University of Medicine and Dentistry of New Jersey)
Top Perscription medication sales include treatments for Heart Disease(which includes HighBloodpressure), Painkillers (which i think could be used less frequently if people were healthy and didnt get diseases, plus they’re addicting and half the time they’re sold on the black market), Diabetes, and Mood Stabilizers (which is fucked up cause nothings wrong with people, they just throw them on medication if they dont conform or aren’t Normal. Everyone has problems and its everyones job to help people get through them. Not abandon them and tell them to get meds to get thier head on straight. its all fucked up.)

Food and Drugs. Why are they together?we ingest them both? its sick. The food they serve us is the very thing killing us. they poison us and we need cures for these health problems and wait… the FDA just has the right perscription medication for you! and we keep on fueling that multi BILLION dollar industry. so anyway. The FDA is a conspiracy. They Feed us HORRIBLE food. LIE to us about health and the food they serve us. and then when we get sick they put us on thier FDA approved medications. We dont hear about the ABUNDANT natural remedies that exist throughout the world and that now more than ever we can get online! They just want money and population control.

I heard there were even aids remedies available in multiple cases throughout the past decade that have been chastized incredibly, most likely due to pharmaceutical propaganda. (The Aids Remedy).(Article #2) Who knows though.

i mean even Diet soda is a LIE. Its among an enormous variety of other food and beverages that contain aspartame in order to emlinate sugar calories in their products. You think you are choosing a healthier alternative, when in reality you are slowly killing yourself via methanol alcohol, the convert of aspartame after digestion. Methanol certainly qualifies as an exceptionally toxic substance, even at extremely low doses (Bennett1953, Posner 1975, Roe 1982). A single dose as low as 300-1000 mg/kg, equivalent to only0.85 ounces to 2.85 ounces for a 154 lbs (70 kg) man and much less a child. There is an enormous array of physical and even psychological side effects as a result of indigestion. Read more:Aspartame (Nutrasweet) Toxicity Info Center, Chronic Methanol/Formaldehyde Poisoning From Aspartame .

Yea. I’m all talked out. I’ll talk more later.

frustrated

im extremely tired. im sorta blah at the moment. life is beautiful. Think about this. Whatever it is that you give attention to, you’ll get more of it. i mean. think about that. Think about the power you have if you grasp that concept. Whatever thoughts you flood your mind with, that is what you will get. do NOT do the contrary and think about everything you wanna avoid… because in the end yourgiving atttention to the very thing you do not want and you’ll end up getting more of it. its an incredible concept. im still in love with emerson. i swear i wish i could quote the book. i want to shove his works into someones head. His thought processes and intuition operates on a level of sophistication and logic that draws me in. I feel like i can relate to his ramblings. thats all they are usually anyway. rambling about the way he sees things. i love it tho. its amazing. i wish everyone has a chance to take on those thoughts. i dont know what to do with myself right now. not in the means of goals and dreams and ambitions… but of more heartfelt things. i think girls are absolutely amazing. but they operate in ways that i cant spend time to understand. id be spending all my free time trying to wrap my fingers around thier mystery. an impossible feat. im tired. night night.

The Strangest Secret

If you’re a motivated person, or a person with passion and desire, read this material by the amazing speaker and author Earl Nightingale. It will shed some light on whether the current path and methods of living are going to bring you where you want to go. I’ve been studying his work for a few weeks now and it’s absolutely profound knowledge:

The Strangest Secret

By Earl Nightingale

When we say “nearly five percent of men and women achieve success” then we have to define success. The following is the best definition we’ve found: “Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal.”

If a person is working toward a predetermined goal and knows where to go, then that person is successful. If a person does not know which direction they want to go in life, then that person is a failure.

“Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal.”

Therefore, who succeeds?

The only person who succeeds is the person who is progressively realizing a worthy ideal. The person who says, “I’m going to become this”… and then begins to work toward becoming it.

Have you ever wondered why so many men and women work so hard and honestly without ever achieving anything in particular? Why others do not seem to work hard at all and yet get everything? We sometimes think it is the magic touch or pure luck. We often say, “Everything they touch turns to gold.” Have you ever noticed that a person who becomes successful tends to continue this pattern of success? Or on the other hand, how a person who fails seems to continually fail?

Well, the answer is simple — those who succeed have established personal goals.

Success is not the result of making money; making money is the result of success and success is in direct proportion to our service.

Here are five steps that will help you realize success:

1. Establish a definite goal.
2. Stop running yourself down.
3. Do not think of all the reasons why you cannot be successful — instead think of all the reasons why you can achieve success.
4. Trace your emotions back to childhood — discover where you first got the negative idea you would not be successful — face your fears.
5. Renew your self-image by writing a description of the person you want to become — Act the part — You are that person!

George Bernard Shaw said:

“People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can’t find them, make them.”

Well, that is pretty apparent, isn’t it? And every person who discovered this believed – for a while – that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.

Now, it stands to reason that a person who is thinking about a concrete and worthwhile goal is going to reach it, because that’s what he’s thinking about. And we become what we think about.

Conversely, the man who has no goal, who doesn’t know where he’s going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion and anxiety and fear and worry, becomes what he thinks about. His life becomes one of frustration and fear and anxiety and worry.

And if he thinks about nothing…he becomes nothing.

So decide now. What is it you want? Plant your goal in your mind. It’s the most important decision you’ll ever make in your entire life. All you’ve got to do is plant that seed in your mind, care for it, and work steadily toward your goal, and it will become a reality.

How do you begin?

First: It is understanding emotionally as well as intellectually that we literally become what we think about; that we must control our thoughts if we’re to control our lives. It’s understanding fully that…”as ye sow, so shall ye reap.”

Second: It’s cutting away all fetters from the mind and permitting it to soar as it was divinely designed to do. It’s the realization that your limitations are self-imposed and that the opportunities for you today are enormous beyond belief. It’s rising above narrow-minded pettiness and prejudice.

Third: It’s using all your courage to force yourself to think positively on your own problems, to set a definite and clearly defined goal for yourself. To let your marvelous mind think about your goal from all possible angles; to let your imagination speculate freely upon many different possible solutions. To refuse to believe that there are any circumstances sufficiently strong to defeat you in the accomplishment of your purpose. To act promptly and decisively when your course is clear. And to keep constantly aware of the fact that you are, at this moment, standing in the middle of your own “acres of diamonds.”

And fourth: Save at least 10 percent of every dollar you earn.

It’s also remembering that, no matter what your present job, it has enormous possibilities – if, you’re willing to pay the price by keeping these four points in mind:

1. You will become what you think about.
2. Remember the word “imagination” and let your mind begin to soar.
3. Courageously concentrate on your goal every day.
4. Save 10 percent of what you earn.

Finally, take action – ideas are worthless unless we act on them.

check it at(http://www.innovationtools.com/Articles/SuccessDetails.asp?a=87)

girls

NEVER be decieved by women. They are a deathly seductive force to be reckoned with, but listen when i say you can see right through them. I do anyway. Woman dont phase me. Sure they have the power to. but i honestly dont give to much thought to their powers. They have no place in my life. i know what i want, and its usually very specific, and thats about the end of it. I dont believe anything out of a womans mouth. You know why? they never mean what they say. and the only reason they say anything is to convince themselves of what they believe in. Basically… all woman want is a reason to change thier minds. but dont give them a reason if its not good enough… or if the times not right. you shouldnt play games. You need to be secure and confident in yourself and tell them exactly what you think. anyway. ive got alot of love.

and i drove from south miami to jupiter in 55minutes… usually a hour and forty minute drive. woot. and its 4 in the morning. woot.

habits

you ever thought about habits? how completely wasteful habits are? im not talking about routine. no. routine is good. there are reasons backing routine. usually good reasons. im talking about habits. they require no thought whatsoever, just a regurgitated response or action. you actually dont have a good reason or motive for having and doing a habit. you maybe once did. its lost now and you just do it for the sake that you’ve done it in the past. maybe minutes or days or months ago. what im suggesting is next time you do something thats habitual ask yourself a few questions. why am i doing this? is this good for me? and hopefully itll spawn some responses. anyway. i think habits are stupid.

burglary

we got robbed last night. round 500am in abacoa. someone came in the house while we were sleeping and took my mothers purse… but ran after my dog spike, a minature pincher with a badass attitude, started barking uncontrollably waking everyone up. my mother saw the doors, garage doors and such propped open with things. waking my father up they realized the purse was gone and upon further inspection and calling the cops we found the purse on the side of the house, as well as the theifs bike that he left. so he took 10 bucks. and we got his bike. hahaha. loser.

remember to lock your doors.

happy

im excited. ive got this vision and fire inside me thats inextinguishable. its amazing. Ive got these visions and dreams and all this good stuff for my life. I no longer worry or fret or dwell on the past. its the here and now. and doing things that will put me in a better position and closer to where i want to be in the future.. whether it be tomorrow or in a week or next year.

basically im really happy. im not looking around on my journey. im set on my path and im not sloweing down for anyone or anything. obstacles, whatever they may be, are only ggoing to make me stronger.

im just excited. Im on my way.

things that ive learned

People never say what they mean.

and why do i think that? cause i do it and i think everyone in the world does it. it allows the people who really want to figure you out the opprotunity to do so without leaving yourself exposed for the whole world to judge and pick at.
i mean. i think there’s a little more to it but im just summarizing.

another thing.

It’s a shitty thing when people don’t care about other people. its another shitty thing to care about people who dont care about you. but. in the end i feel better knowing that they’ve got someone to listen to them when everyone else’s abandoned them. so i love.

tisk

i realized that trying to hard is too obvious. whether trying to be something or someone or get something or someone or achieve something or go somewhere. in the end… you bring this attention to yourself and people say to themselves… there’s way too much effort involved here. i can almost hear people thinking it to themselves when they see it. when they see it in me. when they see it in others. so what im thinking is dont make yourself change. dont try. what people need is the firm resolve of a determined soul. there is no chance, no destiny, no fate, that can curcumvent or hinder or control it. (ella wheeler wilcox.) i dunno. you just need to operate in the subconscious rather than the conscious. you can’t control every little tick-when your consciously in control. so envision it, capture it in your heart, your mind, your soul, so that it becomes imbedded into your being- your subconscious. it will operate on your behalf without you even knowing it. and you will do things so much more cooly and confidently because you wont be exerting any effort.

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i read this today and laughed

i like to park in handicapped spaces
while handicapped people make handicapped faces

hahahahahahahahahahaha

alright so its not that funny… but the mental imagery of the scenario is.

Emerson is AMAZING! gosh i had no idea he was so good. Although he never conceded as ranking with the great philosphers who’ve juggled dogmas or creeds, what made his stand out was his great ability to interpret, rather than create. His writings are articulated and read in a rugged, poised, and concise manner, all while flowing poetically and conherently. He takes the most basic understandings and makes them so profound and spiritual. While your reading you’re just blown away at the perfect perspective he’s taken and is accounted for as he relays his message. Anyway. I’ve read “History” and “Self-Reliance” and both have really opened my eyes to a new light of literature. Maybe before i wasnt so willing to recieve good literature. i need moreeee

i like this

if you do the things you need to do
when you need to do them.
someday.
you can do the things you want to do.
when you want to do them

i love that. and i really do my best to live by that.

i saw everyone that i havent seen in ages the past few days. It was great. i saw alot of people i love dearly. its funny. change is inevitable. i welcome it with open arms. we change. people change. things change. nothing truly stays the same. thats why everyone should welcome change with optimistic open arms. It’ll be good. anywayyy. its good to see everyone.

im reading jerry and esther hicks book ‘the law of attraction: the teachings of abraham” its pretty interesting. I use the word interesting cause i dont know what other word to use in its place. i guess ill go on to describe why i think this. in the first few chapters it talks about all this supernatural energy and channels and stuff. i am trying to reckon it with my conscious. i do believe in the spiritual world. I dont really care what the skeptics believe. Its tooo overwhelmingly positively affirmed that the spiritual world exisits. and quite frankly its just a matter of how much time each person has taken to get in touch with it. i believe its the source of true happiness. BUT. i do ultimately have my faith in God and the Bible.i believe it absolutely contains lifes greatest answers and you know, its easy for someone who hasnt experienced something to judge upon it. and you have to look at all the facts and take steps of faith with each lead in order to grasp the bigger picture. anyway. im trying to figure out if “the teachings of Abraham” are of God or of some other spiritual power thats not of God, but ultimately decieves people into putting thier faith into these entities instead. like demons and what not. i dont know if ive accurately explained what im talking about. im talking about people who are channels with “spirits”. and you ask these spirits whatever you wish and it will provide answers. i mean. im talking about the same spirits that tell those people on tv about the future and the spirits that operate in the all too real game of ouiji. i mean. they exist. and honestly only if you are open to it. and i guess im trying to figure out if these laws of attraction explained in “the law of attraction: the teachings of abraham” will bless me or ruin me. anyway. hm. ill read on and deduct using my reasoning.

love